Y O U *- my darling angel.

2009-05-07T23:58:00.002+08:00

its time for change,
time for a new look,
time for new spot.

will be moving my blog for good!

ask me if ur keen in knowing.

<3

2009-02-23T22:05:00.003+08:00

its been SOOOO LONG since i last blogged man n im surprised ppl still read it!

(quick shoutout: hello baobao, i didnt noe u still read my blog! i haven't seen/talk to you for yrs now :( )

so since im on my blog shall just have a quickie update.

this sem is an EXTREMELY busy one for me. its the most stressful sem yet simply cos im taking 5 modules of which 1 is a 2nd attachment. By right i've left with only 4 mods this sem to graduate, but decided to clear 1 honours breadth to lighten wkload in honours yr. I guess the attachment is REALLY tiring me out! Sometimes i cant help but wonder why i always put myself thru such stressful situations when i envy seeing ppl have so much time studying/ reading up. (the last time was being busy with dance). My readings have now amount to almost my height (i know tts not very tall :P) hahaha. (ok not funny)

so for the past wks, a typical week of mine looks like:

Mon: 2 lects (12-2pm ,2-4pm), DG 4-6pm
Tues: 1 lect (10-12pm), attachment 3-9pm
Weds: 1 or 2 tuts in the morning/ afternn (dep on odd/even wk), 1 lect 3-5pm, tuition 7-830pm
Thurs: 1 lect (12-2pm), attacment 3-6pm
Fri: attachment (9-1pm), occassional 1 lect (2-5pm)
Sat: 1 tuition (flexible timing)
Sun: late morning church, 1 tuition (330-5pm)

so as you can see, my timetable is soooooo long n packed :( i barely have time to really do my work..most of the time im so shagged! On free'er days, im prob spend time recuperating. But on a brighter note, i've been rather blessed with my attachment thus far. Been given the opportunity to be exposed to many areas at the FSC within shld a short span of time. Learning curve is extremely steep!! but i'm still thankful for this experience altho its really draining me out.

i hope i survive this sem : / 4 lvl3000 mods + 1 lvl2000 mod seem to b suffocating me. But yes, i shall no lose faith :)

on a lighter note, im looking forward to going over to melb in late june- early july to visit yiru! its gona b winter n i l0ve winter :D im so excited tt i started looking ard for boots & winter coats. n have found stuff i like! wheeeeeeeee.

A joyful life with a heart of thanksgiving & overflowing love <3!

(hope i survive next wk's term test, very anxious!!)

xoxo

2008-10-28T00:43:00.002+08:00

This yr hasn't been too good for me in terms of health; in fact, one of the worst years.

for the 3rd time (or slightly more) im down with gastric-related illness :( I can only rmb the three more serious times, sometimes its just a few hrs kinda thing. First it was during april, second was during my attachment (a full blow gastric flu, was extremly horrible) n now, the third. Its not very bad compared to the previous, but it just really uncomfortable..almost every single hr u feel like puking, n ur tongue totally lost its taste. Even water tastes horrid to me for some reason :(

this time one was really silly. It happened last thurs when i was really hungry during lunch. Knowing how crowded the horrid science canteen is, i went to get malay food which was the shortest. Most of the food there are spicy. n cos i had spicy food on an empty stomach, this happened. Dont scold me for skipping my meals cos i had tt @ 12pm! n i even had breakfast tt morning.

i know my stomach is my weakest organ. n i was tinking if i were to die of one organ failure wad wld it be..i wld think its the acidity of my gastric juice! my grandpa actually died of long term gastric problem :(

n so since last thurs, i've been bumming ard cos i constantly feel like throwing up n very tired. with exams less than a mth time, im increasingly becoming worried cos im 'wasting' my precious time away doing nothing or just the bare minimum for projects. projects r really draining my energy at this pt :( n the fact that others have alrdy started revision just makes me feel more guilty abt not doing much. i just cant concentrate with my silly gastric!

i've decided to see the doctor tmr! no more delays. i've been taking old gastric pills since thurs but its not working :( wanted to see family doc on sunday but its close, n so is today. didn't want to see another doc for the fear of wrong diagnosis like the previous time.

just hope to get well soon. n im glad for the little cares ard :)

heal me ; give me strength to do ur will

xoxo

2008-10-20T00:01:00.003+08:00

after a week of some rest (mid term tests & assignments mad rush n i self-declared the past wk as my relax week :P), the mad rush is back again!

things due in the wks to come:

SW3209: grp presentation & paper
SW3219: class presentation & grp paper
GEK1534: presentation

so tt's like 5 different things to do. research for some is almost driving me insane!! but im kinda used to it cos the nature of fass modules demands such insane researching each time. i always console myself by telling miss michelle how she'll b so knowledgeable at the end of each semester. (if only she didn't have a goldfish memory)

hahaha.

anyhows, im so happy for my yg&kristal :) reading their wedding website n seeing how they're doing so well in Glassglow really made me feel encouraged somehow..i was pleasantly surprised to read an entry how the couple had successfully lead their first cell grp over there :) not tt it was anything very surprisingly..im just glad to see yg had come to know the Lord n grown in faith with leading tho hes a pretty new christian. Knowing tt hes frm a family whos a pretty staunch buddhist, it was something quite unthinkable. But i always believed tt God will do his work n continue to touch the lives/spirits of many other; non-christians. N it reminded me how a wife's faith in a relationship is very impt in strengthening the faith of her husband, like wad it was said in the scripture :) so praise the Lord for tt! will keep praying for them :))

time to sleeeeeepppp

2008-10-08T00:36:00.002+08:00

as usual, i haven't been updating..school this sem has gone full swing since it started!! loads have happened in my life since the last time i blogged. Some random updates:

1) FINALLY join a DG in crusade. I cldnt b more thankful to finally make a step to my spiritual growth :) God is Amazing. The weekly sharing never fail to opene my hearts..n i never fail to leave each session realizing how amazing God's works are :)

2) Successfully threw samuel's 21st :) its the first surprise party i threw! was really exciting..n im so thankful everything went really well after receiving many positive feedbacks frm his friends! n of cos, the bday boy was touched to tears..such a rare sight but i feel so happy ;)

3) Celebrated our 2nd yr anniv ;) how time flies..ups n downs, but we manage to battle them all!

4) webcam with YIRU last night!! it was so fun :D i actually called her before tt to wish her happy 21st. i was worried tt i wld dial the wrong numbers cos its indeed a longggg strinnnggg of numbers. heh. i really miss tt girl :)) n im so glad our friendship still remains the same despite the distance. <3 u plenty, RU!

5) my ex-neighbour yonggeng n his gf of EIGHT (yes,omg!) years got married!! yes, n they're only 23 :D its like the typical fairytale. sweet sigh. dont worry, the girl is not pregnant (as most typical ppl wld tink tt way). main reason was tt gf was going over to where yonggeng is currently studying to do her PHD! she was previously studying in the US. the couple is EXTREMELY intelligent la ;) all-rounder indeed. n of cos..they just really found love in each other n wanna spend the rest of their live together. i guess when u truly found love, u wldnt mind sucha commitment at all cos in my opinion, u're still going to live with this person with the rest of ur life..whether now or 10yrs later. Things shldnt change much, but just grow in love each day :)

i was super excited abt the entire thing cos its my FIRST friend getting married. it was a really sweet affair. N i must add, they're indeed a one-in-a-million couple..having to maintain a long distance rship. During their wedding, i cld really sense God's love for them both..n how He'd brought them through it all. The hymns n scripture readings reminded me what love truly is..n i aspire to be like them

6) i've got one last mid term this thurs!!

7) my cousin getting married end of this mth! michelle loves weddings :D:D

will upload some pictures when im free.

for now, needa catch up on beauty slp.

xoxo

2008-09-03T00:34:00.002+08:00

the only thing that keeps me sane these days is God.
everytime i speak/ cry out to him..i can sense his presence
his unconditional love that showers upon
i'm couldnt be more glad.

O Lord i pray, that u'll guide us through our days..as we come to discover you more n more each day.. Grant us wisdom; grant us strength; guard our hearts and tongues, so that we'll be above to love one another just as how u love as all.

:)

i wish i cld stop blaming myself sometimes. but its so hard..i greatest weakness is to take everything upon myself. as much as it might sound so silly, unfortunately i am.

2008-08-13T18:49:00.002+08:00

after more than 3 mths of MIA, im FINALLY BACK! hahha. i wonder if anyone still reads my blog anyway..

:)

lots have happened over the past month:

1) completed my 2.5mths of attachment. it was a superb experience. really learnt alot :) n i feel so glad that things turned out well eventually as for those who noe, i had lots of problems getting my agency due to several misunfortunates. n i believed the Lord had his plans for me..its through this experience tt my passion to help grew :) it was amazing how i didnt complain having to work till 11pm on some days n the amt of wk we had to do. Definitely wld love to work in MCYS child protection in future. But meanwhile, shall try other settings!

2) went Bangkok with my dance friends after attachment. it was the BEST shopping spree EVER!! bought so much n the things r unbelievaby cheap man!! most of my things cost abt 6-8 sing bucks only! i realy wanna go back again..shopping is extremely therapeutic :P

3) sentosa getaway with darling was great too :)) many more to come!!

4) many 26o4 outings. still love my jc class loads n i miss those i havent seen for ages! esp
meowmeow, baobao n wendyyy

5) school has officially begun. its the first wk n im hoping to pull myself together this sem after having lots of issues at sch last sem n eventually did very badly :(( but im determine to perform well so i can make my honours yr more worthy :) hopefully now i'll have a bigger motivation since sam is in school with me. yippee! so glad my guy frens r all back!

xoxo,
till then :)

2008-04-25T17:46:00.002+08:00

Some things that pisses me off:

1) accusing me
2) thinking you're right no matter what (well, i always believe an arguement is caused by two though i wld agree sometimes its caused by one. but still, dont behave arrogently n shut the other one off)
3) think you're very great n superior (we all have room for improvement)
4) think that its ONLY right that others compromise to suit your liking

double pissing day.

2008-04-25T00:31:00.005+08:00

Exams in 5 days time O_O

Am starting to panic!! its the time of the semester. If only i'll get immune to all these panicky feeling since i've gone through so many exams in my life!

The several study sessions with rouchi, flor & wings have been quite fruitful! :) enjoy their great company at the good old AMK library. Had Macs breakfast the other day..its been ONE YR since i ate breakfast at Macs. The other time was when Samuel came back from Taiwan. How time flies zzz.

Anyway, i really hope samuel get well soon! Party planning has been going not bad, just undecisive about the cake..cant decide where to get a cheap+good one from :( Still need to run a few more errands..Will complete at least 80% of the preparation shopping by this weekend cos i wouldnt have much time after exams. Exams end late :( Quite excited abt the partyyy..so p'ple, come enthusiastic so it'll make it a fun affair heh ;)

2008-04-20T04:24:00.002+08:00

its 424am now, super late n i know i ought to be asleep.

but im glad im awake cos i feel so much better :)
thank you Reynard for sharing with me this
http://www.muslimjourneytohope.com
and reminding me about God's words.

Im so awed by our majestic Father :)
Strength, unconditional love, forgiveness, hope etc..if you desire.
And im so thankful that im blessed with his holy spirit that touches me time n again!

anyway im so excited n looking forward to the trip to Bangkok with gf! hope it will come true :D

2008-04-16T00:43:00.005+08:00

This year hasnt been too good but admist all tt shit, its always times like these when u realise how important/dear certain p'ple are to you..their genuine and unconditional love.

As much as I'm considered quite tolerant about most things in general, somehow i seriously cant stand just that few.

Im so glad that have been able to rant to samuel, rouchi, florence, Joseph and darling ru who's down under. You guys perk me up day in and out :)

Im feeling uber random now.

Im itching to go on a short breakaway trip!

but now my mind shall be solely focused on S-T-U-D-Y-I-N-G.

p.s RU- hahah i was looking at pics n came across tt. i serious think u look uber adorable there. (heart melt) lol. anyways, i dont have skype!! can we webcam on msn? sorry im like super not IT savvy. n u found any gd catch over there? ;) OH btw! when r u returning to aussieland after ur break in june?

my daily dosage of love*:))

2008-03-30T14:48:00.002+08:00

It amazes/amuses me how i could feel that certain way now after knowing * for like 7rs already!

haha, im thankful for such an angel in my life really. Though not extremely close, but *'s really someone whom i can confide in..n always make me feel at ease. Its really the little things tt warms my heart, n i cldnt b more glad! :))

* is leaving in a few months time n im feeling kinda nostalgic..but im lookin' forward to dinner tmr :D

it must have been that dream last night.

p.s RU: why cannot thank you! i know u'll always support me at heart :D:D *grins* Distant/presence doesnt matter. the heart always counts ;)

2008-03-25T00:55:00.018+08:00

20th march- Silent Vocals IV @ Victoria Theatre

the stage was like our haven,
a place we immediately felt at home

we could dance all day n night

the unspeakable joy it brings

priceless.

it was a great show, and i couldnt be more proud really :)

i guess skipping school for 4 days was worth it afterall cos those full day practises really made as more confident and i guess we managed to shine..judging from the positive comments!

after months of hard work, sacrifices, n severe accumulation of bruises, the alumni just cried together on stage after finale item when yang lao shi herself cried n said she was really touched by the alumni efforts n performance. It was indeed one rare occassion where i felt this unison strong rush of emotions, i was reallyreally moved for i know, each n everyone of us danced our hearts out tt very night.

i admit this dance performance really pushed me to my limits cos out of the 6 items, i was performing in items 2,4 and 6. It was REALLY tiring..coupled with the anxiousness having to change from one costume to another. And the items were abt 15mins each so yups, stamina! but im proud of myself cos i survived..n somehow, i've fallen in love with contemporary dance even more :) yang laoshi is indeed a star teacher..n so is her husband :)

Despite having injured myself just the night before the actual performance, i thank god for taking me through this rough times time and again :) for allowing me to meet wonderful p'ple who share the same passion, who love n care for me..special thanks to those who took time to come down to support the concert and my closer alumni friends like rouchi, florence, wings & peiru who made practices should an enjoyable one! Thank you for the continual motivation..they mean alot to me. And also, for the smooth performance. The chair i feared so much didnt played me out in the end! :D (u know actually during one of the rehearsals, on of the chairs broke into half?? imagine how scared i was! the chairs r REALLY old btw. used it since SYF in 2005!)

The morning after my performance, i just felt this emptiness n nostalgia within. i really missed training with the girls..

n i know for one thing, this performance has really made an impact in my life..

the surprise evening visit during full dress rehearsal :D:D

A BIG thankyou to the following for being there (physically or not):

Samuel Love. Chernie darling. Yonghui. Aston. Jie Wei.Chun Hong. Tzeyong+gf. Ruby. Yan Ye. Guozheng. Joseph+2 friends. Shaowei. Dick. Juliana. Weijie. Benedict. Yiru darling. n many many others :)

thankyou for all the little gifts! its the first time i received so many flowers n i mean SOOO MANY! i really had a hard time carrying them all home but heh. i love flowers n so thankew very much :D:D

Now its back to reality, projects n more projects :( yuck.

2008-03-17T12:12:00.003+08:00

After months of intensive rehearsals, its down to the final show at victoria theatre on the 20th (thurs). Im actually quite anxious & excited abt it! Its the last leg already and i can feel the pressure within us. The juniors have improved quite significantly and am proud of them! :) In the days to come i'll be missing sch cos of the day-night rehearsals at VT..i dont quite want to actually cos its the odd wk n i've alot of lessons this wk!

but well, its only down to 3 days n i guess we all want to make Ms Yong proud of us :) n also, we dont wana regret after tt for not practicing at the actual ground. thankyou to the 17+ p'ple who agreed to come support me! am very happy :))

I have many things to thank god abt n i've learnt time and again that i should learn to trust him more! I was really quite distraught when i realised i didnt get any placement from round1 of balloting and when i viewed the remaining projs left, all of which were either too far, or not the area i want to work in. And so tt night i sent several sms to my sisters and brothers in christ abt it. The next morning i called the dept only to find myself feeling worst after talking to the administrator cos she said someting like "you just have to take whats left". I called peace wong too, the proj coordinator, and soon, miraculously, they found out tt the computer didnt reflect accurately the remaining projs!

So after hrs, when i viewed the projs again n realised..my 1st and 2nd choice was in fact still available! i was really confused as to why i didnt get it in round 1..it must have some computer error again. But yes im really happy it was still available since i really want to do direct youth work! and tadah :D i got my first choice at round 2 of balloting..will be doing my internship at Salvation Army Bishan! woopee~ im quite excited abt starting my attachment hehe. its so near samuel's hse too! double joy :D

that's all for now as i've to quickly do my work and go to town to trim my hair and theres dance after tt till night. Schedule for the next few days will be:

Tues: 12-4pm school
6-10pm Rehearsal at Victoria Theatre

Weds: 12-2pm School (skipping my 2-4pm)
2-10pm FULL DRESS rehearsal at Victoria Theatre

Thurs: 830am report to AJ to take bus to Victoria Theatre
... ... ... lots of rehearsals in between ... ... ....
730pm PERFORMANCE!

really hectic schedule n theres no time to do homewk these few days! i hope my project grp mates forgive me! zZz

2008-02-25T01:36:00.002+08:00

mid-semester break begins today! One week isnt enough to accomplish all my backlog work. Im starting to feel futile abt it :((

WHY! I JUST CANT SEEM TO FIND THAT MOTIVATION! badbadbad.

(shuts myself up)

its time to focus! jotted down the things i gotta do for each module!

i hope my gastric gets well soon :D:D

2008-02-19T12:01:00.015+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates! im still plagued by the lazy-bones syndrome :((

random thoughts/updates:

1) darling panda has flown off to melbourne! i miss her and i cant wait to webcam with her :D:D Some pictures of the stuff we did together before she left.

blading @ bishan park :D

chinatown before CNY :D

2) CNY was alright :) I didnt have the urge to eat much new year cookies this year. And for the 2nd time, my period fell on the 1st day of CNY. What a red new year. hahaha

tt's sean, my cousin! he has grown so much man

3) AJ dance is coming along alright :) Its a good thing we finished the choreography for the 2 dances in dec. I'm still quite worried abt my solo cos firstly, theres so many movements to be done in tt relatively slow music..n working with a prop is never easy! I gotta overcome my phobia of standing on the edge of the chair with one leg n trust the silly chair MORE!!

4) School work is starting to pile up n i've yet to get my things organised! I'm finding hard to focus this semester :( Its alright, i will start from TODAY :D:D

5) Been spending lots of time with samuel ever since he ORD-ed in nov :)

thankyou so much baby, for making time for me every single day despite our very busy schedule..even though its a short 1-2+ hrs each time during mon-sats, its always nice to see u at the end of the day! N sundays are reserved for ourselves with no other commitments other than church in the morning!

Now tt u've started work, i really appreciate tt u still come n wait for me after dance/ find me after tuition even u had sucha long day :)) n to be able to make u laugh even though ur so tired really makes me happy :)

valentines day was a simple affair this year cos i had dance n we're quite busy p'ple :) but we always believe tt everyday's valentines day if 2 p'ple geniunely love each other so yups! save money (to get married, HAHA) :D:D

we celebrated last sunday n on the actual day, samuel came to sch with me! hehe it was quite fun having him crash lecture with me :D surprisingly he said my lecture was interesting! n i brought him to eat at the arts canteen n thereafter, walked around in arts till YIH! cant wait for him to come to sch in aug :)

n last thing, thankyou darling for the little surprise notes u leave me all over the place :D hehe now i've a collection to read n it never fails to be of excellent company n motivation! I LOVE SURPRISES!! (of cos only those with a good agenda!)

delirious :D

the driver.

and his girlfriend ;)

i see love :)

2008-01-22T11:00:00.000+08:00

blading in the park has always been therapeutic for me-- the nice scenery, the sunny yet windy weather..sometimes i just enjoy being close to nature cos for once, we take ourseleves out of the daily meaningless rush :)

2008-01-20T13:55:00.000+08:00

the weather is still as eccentric as ever! i feel so sluugggiishhh.

anyhows, back to school finally! Last week was the first week..3 days work-week for now since tutorials havent started. Pretty much enjoying the school cos im satisfied with the modules this sem n of cos, the people :) FASS still rocks, especially social wk! i know i know, how bias.

a little frustrated over how some lecturers still dont upload lecture notes/ reading list on IVLE. I really dislike going into lectures not having notes, makes it so hard to follow! Its only the 1st week afterall, so lets give them some time. I just hope it wldnt become like the psychology lecture!

AJ dance practice has toned down a little now that school has begun. Still quite disappointed abt my solo..cos its quite fast (considering the amt of movements in a short span) and i still have the fear of doing all those stunts on the chair. COME ON MICHELLE! 2 more mths!!

Next sunday is the auditions for the International Dance Festival in Macau. I still dont know if i wanna go cos its 10 days away from Singapore, quite long, n tt it'll clash with my social wk internship so arrangements have to be made. But i told myself, its quite a rare opportunity being able to represent Singapore and doing a piece choreographed by one Singapore's known choreogpraphers! Im sure there's lots to learn frm such an exchange n i heard summer shopping in Macau is quite good!! (SHOPAHOLIC michelle! woohoo~)

So lets see how the auditions go..quite scared/nervous/anxious abt it actually! The style of this audition wld b ballet n contemporary..kinda lost touch with ballet now that im doing quite a 'rojak' of dance genres. Anyhow, i guess i shant worry abt the outcome..cos i should feel blessed for being given this opportunity :)

anyway, tickets for the AJC bi-annual dance conert are out on sale! It'll be on 20th March (thursday; the day before good friday), 730pm at Victoria Theatre. The Alumni will b putting up 3 items. I'll be dancing in all 3, of which one is a solo shared with another of our cohort dancers, Jie En :) so do come support if u can yea! Tickets r quite cheap, $12 :)

random pictures:

twinkle in the new dress i bought for her :D pretty?

relieved the good-old neoprint days last thurs :D i could stare at them the whole day!

p.s iloveSURPRISES ;) thankyou very very much darling!

2008-01-04T02:29:00.001+08:00

Random thoughts at 2.30am in the morning:

1) I've been sleeping very late these days.

2) I realise I'm still very into colourful things. Somehow it makes me smile even though the thing is someting quite useless? like a stack of different coloured paper.

3) I've been feeling super lazy these days. As much as i feel like exercising, my fat ass refuses to move.

4) Im looking forward to school and i want to be a diligent student!

5) Im hoping to get more pretty & affordable clothes for school cos i've been wearing the same thing for the last 3 semesters!

6) Planning for modules are such a chore sometimes. Especially in our senior years when tutorial slots are SUPER limited?? One day n One timing.

7) I occassionally think of how to celebrate my 21st bday even though its lyk 4 months away?

8) I've yet to buy the hair curler

9) I think twinkle is so irresistably cute sometimes. Especially when she looks at u blurly & innocently.

10) I realise im blessed with many sweet n nice people around me :D

11) Chinese New Year is coming!! i suddenly feel enthusiastic abt it, hahah.

12) I've yet to visit Jewelbox! Next christmas, maybe.

13) I've been wanting to get out of the country for a short getaway. Was thinking about Hongkong, Taiwan, Thailand, Vietnam, Cambodia, Krabi. Hmmmm...

14) I'm feeling thirsty as i type this.

15) I think i should go sleep now, cos my friends online are going off already.

i thought the above was amusing! Somehow it perked me up..hahah.

Btw, I lost uno stacko ALL THREE TIMES IN A ROW. awww man.

2008-01-02T00:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR ONE & ALL!:))

A new year definitely symbolises a new beginning for us in many ways. Havent exactly come out with a list of exhausive new year resolutions, but of cos i do have some in mind :) I forsee the year ahead to be a really challenging one but for one, i told myself that i will (as far as possible), look at it with a positive mindset and i pray for God's grace on that :)

Well, God has definitely been amazing in 2007! Thinking back, i couldnt be more thankful for his priceless gift of love..for lifting me up when i was down (during my exams etc), blessing me with the many sweethearts around (samuel, yiru, chernchieh, ruby, socialwk classmates, schoolmates, churchmates etc), and simply transforming lives ard me. I rmb there was once i was really hurt by this particular issue n prayed so hard to god tt this person will realise his doings one day, n even as it took months, eventually things just got better n i just begin to see a change in him. thankyou father :)

We all know He works in ways we cannot see ; He will make a way for us :)

Some thoughts:

A thoughtful gift. A note of thanks. A genuine smile. A helping hand.

And even a forgiving graciousness - one that overlooks the times when these acts are not likewise reciprocated - for true gratitude, like true love, doesn’t keep score of wrongs.

Yet more than an act, true gratitude is an art. It is the art of a tutored soul. It is the art of a noble mind. It is the art of an indebted heart.

For many, however, gratitude is a lost art. There are more gripes than gratefulness. There is a restless dissatisfaction within the soul.

As Jason Lehman once wrote:

It was Spring, but it was Summer I wanted
-The warm days and the great outdoors.
It was Summer, but it was Autum I wanted
-The colourful leaves and the cool dry air.
It was Autumn, but it was Winter I wanted
-The beautiful snow and the joy of the holiday season.
It was Winter, but it was Spring I wanted
-The warmth and the blossoming of nature.

I was a chlid, but it was adulthood I wanted
-The freedom and the respect.
I was 20, but it was 30 I wanted
-To be mature and sophisticated.
I was middle-aged, but it was 20 I wanted
-The youth and the free spirit.
I was retired, but it was middle-age I wanted
-The presence of mind, without limitations.

Then my life was over, and I never got what I wanted.
_______________________________________

Never enough. Never satisfied. Never happy. Never truly grateful.

We humans are just so guilty of them all.We miss a fundamental truth. True happiness in life is not about getting what we want but rather, it’s about wanting what we get. And being grateful for it.

So this 2008, i just want to learn to be grateful for what i have before me. To be appreciative of the little things in life, the little actions people do for you, to see the good in the things/people ard me n have a forgiving heart. Life's so short anyway, a word of 'thank you' isnt tt hard :)

thankyou to the many for being there with me in 2007 :)

Special note to my 3 sweethearts:

Samuel- :) well darling, u've by now read my long message i typed for u..so here's just a lil follow up. Once again i must say, i couldnt be more happy tt we're still together n growing stronger each day! Like you said, army is one of the worst time to have a rship..what more, start a rship. Coupled with all ur wushu commitments apart frm camp n my dance & sch schedules, it totally wasnt easy! So thankyou for making things work-- all the heart to heart talks n patient reassurance, im really grateful for tt..cos i know we wldnt come so far wldnt the willingness to help one another. I love you dear, may we continue to have faith in this rship till the end :)

ChernChieh- my dearest girlfriend of 6 years! i know how difficult is it for us to meet sometimes, being in different schools and having different schedules altogether, but im really thankful tt we'll still find time for one another n still be there for one another at heart :) I'll nv forget the times u were there to physically support me in my dance..thankyou girlfriend! michelle loves u :D

Yiru- Panda!!:D thankyou for always making time for me..all the tanning, shopping, baking n random dates we have..i always had a blast with you! i rmb all the silly things we do like looking at HHL during AJ sports day n the most recent, carving weird gingys with you, u always make my day dear :) You'll b going off to melbourne in feb n i must say, im gona miss alot :( no more khaki tt lives near me. But we'll still keep in touch via webcam k? n of cos, when i save enough (prob in late 2008/mid 2009), i'll go visit u..i'll love to visit melbourne! Till den, lets spend more time together u leave..bambooo loves u very much :)

2007-12-31T00:26:00.000+08:00

..and so they think their bitchings will bring them far,
yes, it may have seemed to be..
sensationalising each story without mercy..
they're in control
and we're the victims afterall.

BUT i guess, all these only gives them temporal superiority..
the satisfaction will soon diminish with time
and hopefully, with some form of maturity in their minds.

I feel appalled by my own kind sometimes.
The ability of their mouths are beyond thoughts,
like a blade without a heart.

I wonder what are all these for?
Are they even too free to mind their own business?
Since when does a private affair becomes a public affair?

That's how ruthless the world can be.
Isn't it atrocious?

I (We) so wish to prove them wrong,
only with time it shall be.
if you have the patience,
just wait and see.

Cos for now,
we'll let u declare queen.
a short-lived one i reassure you of.
_________________________________________________

2007 is coming to an end!
how time flies..
time to recapsulate memories and reflect!
:)

new year resolutions to come.

2007-12-27T00:07:00.000+08:00

23rd Dec- Sunday

darling came to my church :)

24th Dec- Christmas Eve

Had a homely and warm one this year with my best friend, boyfriend & his frens. A last minute BBQ was planned only on sunday..but it was quite fun running ard to get stuff together with samuel :) Thankyou chernie darling for turing up despite the last min notice..wld have been better with valerie and pauline (who cldnt make it ; cldnt b contacted), i still had fun with you!

p.s i love ur gift! so pretty n very me :D:D girlfriend knows what i like best! so does samuel seah la ;)

n i hope samuel's friends had fun too! thanks for being so gentlemanly and serving the girls with the occassional chao ta food..but haha its nice tt u guys manage to catch up n all! twinkle was definitely highly attracted to you guys!

pictures!!

we played UNO STACKO! which i lost 3 times. dammit.

the hunks and babes :)

the old-school swing tts there since i was born!!!!

pretty christmas tree ; with twinkle baby :)

cutesy log cake frm my lovely man :)

still, my favourite & prettiest girl, inside out :)

25th dec- CHRISTMAS :)

relived the pak tor days at the esplanade with mister samuel seah :) hahah. ate outdoors at thai express which we shared alot abt the past..quite interesting (and embarassing) to know abt stuff. Strolled along the river all the way to fullerton. Gorgeous atmosphere ; superb weather ; great company, what more can i ask for?:) saw some lightings tt was to be up for count down..it was really a magnificant sight!

edible gingerbread man hse!

us :D

Thankyou love, for celebrating christmas with me for the 2nd time. Despite the occassional bickerings, im still thankful for you in my life and being by my side always..especially thru my darkest moments. As the days go by, i must say, u've inevitably become so part of me..so close to my heart. And tts why i wanna treasure u more n more each day cos you are so special to me.

Christmas is a time for thanksgiving too, so i wanna thank you for being all that you are my dear..i love you so veryvery much:) mwa*

2007-12-22T01:49:00.000+08:00

oh why..
those worldly demands that blind?

oh why..
those humanistic characteristics of individualism prevail?

Its a struggle.
Its almost making me lose my head.
I can only keep praying to keep sane.

"Who is going to harm you if you are eager to do good? But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed...so that those who speak maliciously against your good behaviour in Christ may be ashamed of their slander. It is better, if it is God's will, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil." --- 1Peter3:13-17

Oh father, i know we shld nv expect returns in whatever deeds we do. Altho i do wish to be appreciated sometimes, i noe lord, tt ur words of truth will continue to be my light and strength through it all :)

2007-12-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

hellohello, sorry for the lack of updates..i've been REALLY LAZY! I dont know why, but i tink the weather (rainy + cloudy) is making me feel extremely sluggish. I've been having the urge to shop, but the fact tt it has been pouring every single day makes me feel lyk staying at home to watch my dramas. (n continue being smittened by them) hahah.

okie i've loads to update, but i'll do a chopchop random version in point form:

1) lost my hp yest! Some idiot stole it frm my bag..i was really upset cos my bag was with me all the time. Thank god darling was with me, my comforter does wonders!:D

Been busy msging p'ple to send me their contacts. Thanks to the many smses of concern n the prompt reply by many. My favourite of all was a msg frm my bro's gf --"...sorry to hear abt ur phone, may the phone stealer be punished with a stubborn rash that nvr clears!" HAHAHAHHA super amusing la.

2) My bro has returned frm SEA games :) proud of his Bronze medal achievement. Although he has been very lucky through the many rounds, im glad he was given the opportunity to be part of team singapore! And i also wanna thank god for bringing him safely back to singapore :) Despite how we always quarreled n hurl harsh words at one another when we were younger, i realise sometimes, nth beats the bond that blood siblings subtly share :)

3) Baked gingybread man with ru! so much fun :D:D turned out delicious too!

handmade & crafted! cool right!? look at the foaming gingy! (2nd row extreme left) hahaha.

snowflakes are my fav! pretty huh ;)

4) been busy dancing-- rehearsing and teaching & also giving tuition!

5) exam results out on the 27th! kinda scared..but at the same time excited to noe how i fare. I trust in the plans that god has laid out for me, so theres nth to fear at all :)

6) Somehow i cant wait for sch to begin. Sometimes i feel quite sian and all at home! Hopefully i get the modules i want next sem! :)

7) im currently hooked to romantic princess on crunchyroll!! 2 more episodes left only :(( next up i'll watch huan huan ai :D

okieeee tts all i can tink of to blog for now. Takecare p'ple :)

2007-11-29T18:00:00.000+08:00

oh man,

i just realised one of my pri school close friends was in the team singapore rowing in Cambodia! And i only realised it today after looking at some pictures closely! I havent spoken to him for quite long now, months back he msged me on facebook though. I rmb him as one of my pri sch crushes..cos we had quite an amusing story to that.

i could have lost a friend. thank god he survived..he fought the waves! I guess we can never imagine what they went through, nature is definitely unpredicatable..it must have been rough. and tough, having being in a situation of life and death, and losing ur teammates so dear to you..i would have been crushed if tt were to happen to me.

life is that fragile, and the world is that small.

2007-11-29T14:39:00.000+08:00

the little hugs from behind,
the 'sharing' of lip gloss *;)*
the 1.5hr lunch break
the occassional sneak out during trngs
the encouraging words you give
the love and care you shower me with

:)
your little action does wonders

although most of the time i've to be alone while u train,
studying from 11.30am-630pm doesnt seem lyk a chore
how amazing :)

thankyou love :D

i hope you get well soon! pls take care of urself yeaa? u always need to be reminded like a little boy hahah. SO Pls dont forsake ur health for wushu/marathon, its not worth it at all.
_____________________________________

Condolences to my social work junior, Ivan, on the passing of his father.
His father passed away suddenly after jogging.
He's one person with a very positive outlook in life and always have this smile on his face,
and i tink he's one person blessed with the spirit to share the joy with the p'ple ard him.

its scary how it seems like the men are passing away suddenly these days?
theres just too much happening ard me tt im fearful sometimes.

but lets pray that Ivan will be strong during this period,
cos its really hard especially during the exam period now.

Nevertheless,
God is love and his love will guide us through it all
:)

2007-11-27T01:18:00.000+08:00

theres no time to waste,
no time to stop and wait,
no time to empathise and compromise.

this race is all about yourself.

without sparing a thought?

2007-11-21T13:25:00.000+08:00

as much as i want to put it behind,

im struggling to.

but I know i can!

afterall its been only two days.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" -- Philippians 4:13

and twinkle's such an angel, she never fails to brighten up my days :) doesnt she make u melt with her puppy eyes?

2007-11-16T01:22:00.000+08:00

the exams are around the corner. again.
the process sucks as usual,
having to burry urself in tt pile of relentless books,
and telling urself useless things like "i shld have started earlier!"

its a vicious cycle.

i enjoy what i study
but there seem to b insufficient time?!!

i cant wait for exams to be over!
its driving me nuts..the readings r endless
and im uber stress in the middle of the night,
LIKE NOW!

10 more day to exams.

im in great need of motivation :( really.

2007-11-08T01:14:00.000+08:00

60% of my study plan is up! like finally.

its the time of the semester again, EXAMS.

the thought of it makes me feel sian.

still quite busy with AJ dance & amore rdshows.

AJ dance currently takes up 3 days each wk.

Im quite amazed tt im still surviving with all the commitments.
Anyway,i tink AJ dance concert next yr wld b quite interesting :)

do come down n support okie??

its in march, somewhere near our recess wk i tink!

anyway, HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

yay! its a public holiday..not that it makes much of a difference.

but holidays just make u feel better. hahah

tmr's plan shall be: tuition with jerome, amore rdshow, samuel :D

random pictures frm today:

while waiting for him

he took this while i was driving. sucha distraction!

brief moments just before his training :)the delirious look on his face hahah ;)

you totally made my day, sunshine! thankyou so much :D

2007-11-05T14:25:00.000+08:00

monday blues are so apparent these days.
exams are in exactly 3 weeks,
and i've yet to really sit down and study.
there's just too much to handle/do now..
one proj left & other issues,
frustrates & hinders me sometimes.

in need of motivation,
in need of a sweet escape.

maybe,

heres one reason to smile

p.s im having lecture now. zzzzz

2007-11-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the last sw2103 (social wk- community & grp work) tutorial. Met really great p'ple there, n i must say its my best tutorial for this sem :) conincidentally all my group mates are from campus crusade..god's work is really great huh. Hopefully we'll b taking similar module next sem!!

As the last 2 tutorials were on group work, we had to conduct our own grps by planning activities and coming out with wad we wanna teach the grp. The beauty of it is, we can choose to do ANYTHING n conduct our grp wk ANYWHERE. Being sensible 20 year olds, we didnt choose to slack..n i must say i learnt alot! :D Altho student-run tutorials means Dr Metha just have to sit there n do nth, it was still effective learning n she joined us! veryvery fun!

Photos photos :D

ice breakers of the wk!-- we had to flip the paper as a grp n still stand within even in the process. i felt so claustrophobic!! everyone was lyk holding on to each other for dear life..n it was quite stuffy haha. anyway, each grp wk had to start off with icebreakers :) since i didnt get a chance to attend FASS orientation in YR1, finally i get to play such games. hahaha

there were several teamwk kinda games played tt day, which we had to take turn to lead in. tt's the game i had to lead my grp in, rearranging them in ascending order.

and so i choose the tapping method whereby my grp member will tap the number they had cos they were 'mute'. n we all had to cover our eyes. hahah, tts sherene btw :D

yay! i succeeded in rearranging them without communication :)

And for the next activity, we had to role play the defense machanism we were taught and the rest of the group members were suppose to guess which of the 10 we were acting. We were paired up.

Raynod & Sherene :)

yingying & me :D she was my sc1101 (sociology intro module) tut mate too!

the couple in my class! Adam & xiao jun :) they happen to b dressed similiarly tt day! haha

zhong yun & rachel :)

role play with yingying :D

and tt's my fun bunch of tutorial mates with dr metha :) the room we were at is a family & child counselling room..so theres little dolls etc for a child to renact what goes on in his life/ family etc :) so cool huh.

..the people, the common passion, the life skills learnt-- tt's why social work rocks ;)

______________

boring boring friday night, yawns.

2007-11-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

one more presentation & one more group report before this semester wraps up! What a semester i had! never been so stressed before..rushing from classes to classes, having to embark on very tedious projects. Level 3000 modules r quite demanding in nature man.

Im so glad i survived them all! Although the final test wld b the exams, but the learning journey been great :D i enjoyed the modules i took this sem, no regret!

anywayyyy, thankyou so much LT SKY SEAH for coming down to clementi to fetch me! i wasnt expecting tt..finally a successful surprise!! hahaha ur improving, after the hidden silver shoes incident, not bad ;)

today's Nov 2, which means my darling has offically ORD! I noe how elated u are..waiting to get out of the hell hole. But im sure ur air force stint was quite nice compared to many other vocations, ur very lucky actually! I heard the dudes are going for some yummylicious seafood for dinner which inludes chilli crab + deep-fried man tou to celebrate!! SO TERRIBLY TEMPTING :(((

time to sleep! i shall dream of eating a feast. hehe

the army has been one of the roughest time--

the 1 mth wifout u when ur in taiwan,

the incompatible schedules we had etc

but nevertheless,

we made it thru!:D

thankyou

for making things work..

for the countless heart-to-heart talks,

the compromises we're willing to make,

i cldnt ask for more :)

2007-10-31T20:30:00.000+08:00

was on train home from school today.
occassionally nodding off even tho i was standing
cos i had little rest last night.

nevertheless from the corner of my eye,
something caught my attention,
it was a sweet sight-
a very old man was holding on to his wife's hand
even tho she managed to whole a wee bit of the hand pole,
he still held hers throughout the entire journey.
his simple touch seemed to speak a thousand words to me.

tts what true love is abt i guess,
it takes you through all diffculties, through the years,
most imptly,
through it all,
unconditionally.

:)

2007-10-30T01:47:00.000+08:00

the depressing workload-- its not time to give up just yet michelleee!:)

one of samuel's sms reads "don't be sad dear, life's full of difficulties, more so work is the easiest of all difficulties." think abt it, its true huh..work is someting so predictable compared to the world out dere. why fret!

thankyou my hunny bun, now u noe why ur smses are so impt to me. Things like these just perk me up especially in the middle of the night when struggling to manually count my EXTREMELY TEDIOUS DATA ON EXCEL! gawd.

:) congrats on passing ur driving!! "now ur on the right side of the car seat"- quote and unquote from YOU. hahahah giggles.

for there are many reasons to smile, so much to look forward to, if you look on the bright side :) *i wish i was tt positive all the time!*

Loveyou.

2007-10-22T23:49:00.000+08:00

My greatest condolences to
Cheston Chik Cheng Rui

an AJC senior,
whom i got to know at this yr's alumni concert- The Reunion.
he was the drummer at the concert,
and i thought he played really well.
afterall, not many p'ple will come back
to do something for their alma meter,
and i guess AJ was something to him :)

he passed away last night 21st Oct in the wee hours,
nobody know the exact cause,
cos no one was at the scene during his death
but they suspect it was an asthma attack followed by a heart attack.

he just celebrated his 21st bday in mid sept,
i can imagine how much he has to look forward to in his future
having almost completed his 1st semester at NTU engineering.
his tutorial fren was just saying how he was joking in class
during fri's tutorial..

was just speaking to chinglee,
he told me they were just jamming on sat, 20th Oct (the day before his death)
i'll never understand the exact pain of losing a brother,
but i noe how painful it is to lose someone without a single word of goodbye

he may not be a close friend,
or merely just a friend i had brief moments with at the concert..
but i do feel sadden by his sudden lost
it reminds me how fragile life is
that the ones u love so much may just go anytime, just any time.

shouldnt we learn treasure them all?
n remind them each day how much we love them
and thankful for having them in our lives?
we often keep all these within cos we assume they know,
only when its too late.

the AJ dance alumni will b there to send him off on weds night.

i pray tt he'll rest in peace
and i noe he will be
cos he's in the good hands of the father now :)

2007-10-18T19:47:00.000+08:00

it was raining pretty heavily before i went to school today n i was sitting at the dining table, crossing my fingers that the rain wld stop soon. cos i've a phobia that an accident wld happen again after the trauma last friday.

and thank god it did :)

so i went to school, not lookin forward to it at all, cos i was stressed abt my 2 presentations today. chionged to the central library to grab some books to aid in conducting my grp work session for sw2103. yes, i didnt prepare before hand cos was busy with my fri's essay. it was the SC2220 (sociology, gender studies) presentation 1st. i wasnt prepared too..intended to just use theories/ideologies from previous semesters. had a bad feeling abt it. And very surprisingly, Dr Eric Thompson commented tt our presentation was great!

and I thank god for that :)

after each grp presented, Dr thompson returned our individual term assignment. Horrors of all horrors! it was one paper tt i wasnt confident abt..cos when the class discussed, i didnt seem to have anything similiar. When my name was read, i collected my paper..my heart skipped a beat. Slowly peeped at the last page to see my grade n never did i expect, i got a B+!

and I thank god for that :)

i cldnt b more grateful than that, tt god never fails to lead me through my obstacles and guide me with his light. I may complain n grumble..but i still feel blessed for the ones ard me, to encourage me through my stress'est moments, like now. im sorry if my temper hasnt been too good lately, the past wk and this wk hasnt been too kind to me with all the essay deadlines. this week especially, with 2 essays (one 4000word and the other 2000words) n 2 presentations. but i just wana let all of you noe tt i always treasured all the little care im showered with :)

tmr's friday and the wkends r coming! im looking forward to it :))

michelle wants to shop & bum around at the beach :D:D

2007-10-17T01:13:00.001+08:00

due dates & outstanding 'chores':

thurs- SC2220 & SW2103 presenation
fri-SSA1202 2000word essay :(

school has hit its peak this week! i cant wait for the weekends cos I AM GOING TO TREAT MYSELF. Retail therapy works best especially after a stressful week :D

thanks my superhero spartan for being there :) archade sessions r always therapeautic though we've spent a bomb there. BUT HEY, we've finally gotten tt little cute furry thing! we'll go back for more soonnn..wheeee. i loves thrills!

shall leave pictures to do the talking. im lazy tonite zZzzz, pardon me.

tts our priceless little baby ;)

Ms yong's performance @ esplanade together with the AJ dance alumni :D

tt's my dance partner cindy :Djie en :D

n im so curious to find out who that mysterious girl is!

2007-10-11T21:49:00.000+08:00

when i look into ur eyes,
searching for that strength & comfort..
i saw you gaze upon mine
with something I've never quite seen before.

those questions seem to vanish immediately
and suddenly i realise,
maybe i was wrong all these while

n im glad that i was wrong,
cos its getting closer to my dream.

:)

2007-10-08T23:53:00.000+08:00

my energy level has officially gone down below zero! im totally sleep deprived..n i blame it on myself for sleeping abt 2+ or 3am the past 5 days or so :( how terrible i noe. School work is piling n i feel a sense of urgency, more often than not, only when its at the 11th hour!

dance rehearsals for the musical is coming on great! i love the choreography :D:D but ah, minus the fact tt i sprained my 2nd toe on my right foot while doing this arched-back jump. I dont know why each time i perform for hamzah, i've to break some part of my body..the other time was my left hip. MAN :( but then again, the opportunities he gives me r always great. No pain, no gain huh! i wanna heal soon~ musical is in 2wks time!!!!!

was extremely lethargic at school today..the lack of sleep has caused occasional splitting headaches! Its monday today, so samuel's on leave! doesnt clearing leave for ORD rocks? lol im envious. And so i was msging him during my sw3101 very boring research module telling him i was craving for nasi lemak. and hahah, i tot he was quite cute when he tried so hard to source for the best nasi lemak across the island. We eventually settled for the one in bishan cos we din wanna waste time travelling to the one at changi village..n it was pretty cheap n GOOD :D:D after dinner was archad time! we got so hooked onto the toy machine la..totally burnt our pockets. but it was great fun isnt it??:P n of cos, we played the drums & car game :D SO FUN!! amazingly i cld still jump in excitment forgetting my sprained toe :))

smiles. thanks darling for the great day today..u shoo-ed away my monday blues & of cos, ur an excellent destress-er ;) heheh.

2007-10-06T01:18:00.000+08:00

Here's something we all can relate to,
Here's something to remind us:

"In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold. -- Ephesians 4:26-27

...and tt's probably why we get hurt when our loved ones r angry.

2007-10-01T18:20:00.001+08:00

the mid-semester break was simply over too quickly to comprehend! :(

i felt as if i barely did anything academic n im starting to feel all anxious abt exams/ project due dates since its the second half of the semester now..n you noe what tt means! Each semester just flies by toooooo quickly!

well on the other hand, school aside, last week was a happy one having celebrated sam's bday & our 1 yr anniversary..the preparation was fun n of cos, the time spent tops it all..it cldnt get better. Took my mind of all the buzzling n horrid demands of life :))

n so reality sets in..less fun for certain weeks to come :( assignments r suffocating me!!

michelle needs motivation.

2007-09-27T17:52:00.000+08:00

After months of planning, 26th Sept finally came :)

*HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY & ONE YR ANNIVERSARY, MY LOVE!!*

Actually we've been together for more than a yr, but my very cute bf decided tt 26th sept was a more auspicious date for us (HAHAHAH), which makes 26th even more special with the double celebration :))

Gave him a lil surprise celebration on the 25th nite after his driving. Actually, he unexpectedly came over to my place in the afternoon after camp to nap b4 going for his driving at night. I had to hurriedly hide all evidence for the night surprise with the last min notice. It was quite amusing cos he was searching my room for evidence, awwwww. he failed! obviously i wldnt hide them in my room darling!

After napping & having dinner @ my place, he rushed off for driving. He came over after tt abt 10pm cos we agreed to "spend the mooncake festival together under the moonlight" (hahah it was all part of the plan to lure him back). During his absence for tt 2hrs, i quickly decorated the room with the banner i painted for wks, heart-shaped balloons etc. Told him to come up to my room if i dont go down to welcome him as i was "busy settling some proj stuff" haha. So upon hearing the door bell ring, i quickly on my webcam (cos i wanted to see his expression) n hid under the bed while waiting anxiously for his arrival! n YAY! it was a success :)

So nice seeing you happy dear..even after u had a long day:) u were so excited abt taking photos! n u trying to blow out the trick candles i used was really amusing..i had it all on video for memories!:D Hope i made it special enough for you dear-- the banner, balloons, video tt i made for you, platter of pastries, handmade card & ipod nano i got for you :) i noe the nano is ur 2nd gf now, ur so hooked onto it i can see :P but its okie! use it n think of me k!

pictures frm the 25th~

my room :)

my sweetheart excitedly lighting the candles :))

20 cupcakes for his BIG TWO ;)

:))

silver shoes frm topshop!:D thanks baby! ur super sneaky, i cant believe u secretly hide the shoes in my drawer!

Samuel took off on the 26th so we cld spend the day together :) we chose giraffee eventually cos it was more convenient, perfect ambience & some of their food were quite good! Thankfully it was a wkday nite, we had the luxury of choosing where we wanna sit. We sat indoors for our main meal & outdoors for dessert :)

bread with olives & olive oil for appetizer! i tot it tasted was quite exotic :)

mushroom soup & calamari rings were heavenly!! :D:D

top: sam's steak which he complained was too dry

bottom: my garlicky chicken which was good :)

molten lava for desert! its a unique choc cake tt oozing fudge in the middle. Unique!

the nice ambience :)

huge sofa seats to ourselves!:D

lookin' good together ;)

full moon above!:)

after dinner & taking some photos, we went to play pool @ monstercue!! the rates were really ex actually :( hahaha darling was pissed at my luck. He wasnt pissed la..he was more of erm, cldnt believe i was not bad :P but aiya, of cos he was still better than me! We took turns to thrash one another...but the last game, he thrased me MAJORLY. argh :(

dont you wish ur boyfriend was hot like him? ;)

the past 2 days (tues & weds) was superb :) i know u spent so so much money on me!--the watch, topshop heels, dinner & pool. But u'll say money cant buy happiness..i agree, so yea, most imptly we had a great time together :)) One more to add to our book of memories :D n..Thanks dear, for the past 13+mths..despite the ups & downs, im glad we never did gave up on each other :) Cheers, to the many many yrs ahead of us! For all that you are, and for who you are..i love you dear :)

2007-09-24T19:55:00.000+08:00

to overcome.

though im finding it so hard,
i'll keep trying.
fighting hard, fighting strong
cos i know this is something i must learn.

but this is one thing i cant do alone.
n i know im not alone.
take my hand n tell me,
everything's gona b alright.

:)

2007-09-23T03:34:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord,

Thank you for never giving up on me, even through my darkest moments when i almost lost hope in you. Thank you, for being an ever loving and gracious god through and true. I dont know what's within me that's been hurting me so badly inside lately..i've tried so many times to sort things out on my own, but somehow, the pieces just dont fit. It frustrates me much, cos i dont want to behave like this and trouble/hurt the p'ple ard me..many of which whom i love. Lord, i pray tt with your light, i'll be able to find peace at heart..to learn to forgive and forget the past. Some things r simply so hard to forget and they've hindered me so much in my life..lord, instead of looking at it in a negative light, teach me to overlook these barriers and look at things with an open heart and mind :)

Lead me, guide me o lord..

Hide me now

Under your wings

Cover me

within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with you above the storm

Father you are king over the flood

I will be still and know you are God

2007-09-20T23:17:00.001+08:00

missed the cut,
aint good enough.

2007-09-20T12:35:00.000+08:00

i overslept n ponned my sociology lect this morning, cos i figured it was no pt rushing down just for 2hrs. i feel bad abt ponning it for 2 consecutive weeks (last wk was mambo) :( forgive me, i'll make up by doing my readings for the wkkkk :D

having tuition at 3pm laterrr. since im pretty bored now, shall entertain myself by doing this--
________________________
my name is:
Wong Li Jin Michelle :)

never in my life have i been:
sky-diving!! it looks so cool :D

when im nervous:
i'll doing something really quickly (ie. talk dam fast etc)

the last time i cried was:
saturday. when i was really worried for my brother

my hair is so:
very longggg & not so silky :( i wanna re-highlight it too when $ falls frm the sky!

when i was 10:
i badly wanted to get into EM1 cos i heard they had better teachers?

last christmas:
i spent it was samuel & his 2 buddies in town :)

i should be:
studying now n not wasting time on this! (oops)

when i look down, i see:
myself still in my very cutesy pyjamas. hahahaa

the happiest recent event was:
hmmmm. mayb, being invited to teach a corporate class at the minister's office? felt privilledged for the opportunity but sadly, cant lah..cos im bonded by amore fitness n cant teach their signature classes outside :(((

by this time next yr:
i'll see samuel seah n my other guys frens frm my batch in school :D:D yay! more lunch mates!

i have a hard time understanding:
why certain issues keep haunting me even though i tot they were settled.

you know i like you when:
im really nice to you n ur given priority for my time :))

if i won an award, the 1st person i wld tell is:
ok, depends what the award is. but most prob, the bf then parents then gfs! :)

take my advice:
men r the most complicated and hard to understand creatures when they think otherwise.

something that i really want to buy is:
pointed shoes, casual dresses & long necklaces :((

i plan to visit:
maldives (to chill), new zealand(for the picturesque scenery) & taiwan (for food & shopping!)

i'd stop my wedding if:
my 'husband' confesses he's a woman? hahahah

the world could do without:
all these brainless terrorists.

most recent thing i bought myself:
casual black dress frm school with juls:)

most recent thing i bought for someone:
a barley drink for darling last nite? hahaha

the animals i wld like to see flying besides birds:
ERM. pigs? i tink they'll look quite cute

tomorrow i am:
having a long day @ school cos i'll stay till 7pm to watch the next wave!

tonight i am:
probably having dinner with samuel seah n watch vcds/scv!

my birthday is:
over :(( 6587. 21yrs old next yr, so old :(

what i really wanted for valentines day is:
spent time with my special someone in a romantic setting :)

2007-09-20T01:41:00.000+08:00

im so glad wednesday is my free day! i realise i've just too many things to do n even my free days doesnt sound so free cos i'll b busy running errands! i didnt noe running errands can b so mind-bogging sometimes. hahaha oh wells..

anyways, i went to the Lion's Befrienders to help out in their morning activity this morning! I hafnt been there for 2yrs since i graduated frm AJC...it was the place my class did our SL at. The Lion Befrienders is actually a day care activity centre where elderly living in the neighbourhood wld come down to participate in the various programmes. Most of the elderly generally live alone (i just found out), so they're quite lonely p'ple. Its was really nice seeing familiar faces after so long! (MEOWMEOW, rmb ur hai nan aunty?? i heard she's 90+ yrs old u noe!!!)

actually u must be wondering why all of a sudden im back there again. well, actually its cos im current doing a social wk module on 'wking with older adults' and we have a 4000words term assignment to do on one individual elderly. so i tot instead of asking my grandma, it wld b nice to wk with someone i dont noe..i guess only then will i b more critical in my assessment of the person. but then again, the purpose of my visit is not solely for academic purposes..i was hoping my learning journey wld b more meaningful if eventually im able to successfully build rapport with them and maybe some skills i've learnt in the course? Who knows, i may fall in love wking with the elderly and mayb in future be mother thersa. hahahahah kiddinggggg. but yea, im thankful the centre's been so welcoming towards me :))

man, looking at my schedule for october..i simply feel so...(ok no words can describe it). okayy, mayb stressed..no, VERY stressed. All the projects due dates r bold in red on my calendar n they're like due back to back. Term test after my break next wk. Im looking forward to my cap advert photoshoot though. n i noe darling's looking forward to his ORD by then. You can imagine how jealous i'll b of him when hes so carefree while i live in my moutain of books/notes :(((((

alritoes! its time to sleep :)

2007-09-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

i feel so drained today.
i wish theres 10 more hours in a day.
im stressed by the demands of this cruel world,
that sometimes i wld rather be alone.
but it only makes things worst, cos i have a vivid mind.
i want my brother to get well soon.

despite all the boo boos,
i still feel encouraged by little things in my life.
For my little sunshine's time & effort (juljul thanks for lunch:D),
seeing my students enjoy my dance class so much,
my frens msging me to show concern abt my bro (thanks cass ;))
just to name a few.

Nothing's too difficult, if you keep trying :)

goodnite p'ple! im nodding off..

2007-09-18T00:20:00.000+08:00

the new week has begun, n im actually quite happy/excited abt it!:)

For one, im glad tt the very unfortunate past wk with many many mishaps/stresses is over. Some of which are still ongoing, projects/assignments n the usuals. But my upmost concern now is that my bro will get well soon. He's currently hospitalised for some swelling on his leg after his competition n they're afraid tt it might be some serious viral infection. So he's currently undergoing lotsa observation n tests to ensure theres nth too serious in him.

Initially, the doc suspected the swelling was due to blood trombosis. When i heard the news on sat night, i just felt veryvery worried n cldnt help but just cried. Cos if u noe more abt blood trombosis, u'll noe its fatal. Thankfully i had samuel beside me at tt point, we just finished watching a wushu display @ the indoor stadium when i knew abt it. Sometimes i guess we dont realise how precious someone is to us till we face such situations when we might have a possibility of losing them.

To be honest, my brother & i arent very close on the outside. But theres this silent care we have for one another, we both know it..just tt somehow, we're not so outward abt it, i dont know why really. Is it the ego thing? well..the little things he does for me does shows me tt he dotes his little sister alot..i rmb how once he secretly paste a post-it note on my table to wish me luck for my dance. I hafnt done something like tt for him before, n i realised how i've taken him for granted sometimes.

But i'll keep the faith, n entrust him into god's hands..tt he'll be safe n he'll get well in due time :) special thanks to my friends, you noe who u guys are..thanks for keeping my brother in ur prayers..it does comforts me. n thanks alot darling, for being there in times of need :)

next week is a special week for you & us ;) i cant wait to see ur reaction baby! n tt's something i looking forward to too! n yups, church this sunday..ur finally coming along with me to service! :D yay!

tmr (tues) is gona b a busy day. Meeting juls for lunch at 1040am n collect our dresses, lect frm 12-145pm , rush for tuition which is frm 3-430, teach dance at park mall frm 6-7pm. what a packed day im gona have..

anyway thanks juls, for making my monday blues disappear :D finally met up with u for lunch again! n thankfully ur maths lect is cancelled, so cld spend sometime chatting n of cos, yogurt icecream + shopping was fantastic ;) n thanks love too, for coming over to eat dinner & spend some homely time with me~ how wonderful to start the week well :D

How great is our God,
sing with me
How great is our God,
and all will see
How great, How great
Is our God
:))

2007-09-14T10:17:00.001+08:00

If only the comparatives "more than" or "less than" didnt exist in this world, wouldnt life be made much easier?

But the sad truth is, life's never ever a balanced scale. (i'll be happy enough even with a marginal deviation) Things are just too distinct to the eye. Sight to inner thoughts. The only way to silent it is to pretend.

i could ask why a million times.

but nevertheless, i will not count my blessings..at least i still have you, you & you :)

SMILEmichelleSMILE, simplicity is happiness :D

P.S hello my man, hope the mooncake is accompanying you thru ur DO duty tonight! much much love frm me :)

2007-09-12T11:58:00.000+08:00

cassandra! i dont noe if u'll read this but, i wanna tell you i totally agree with ur entry on guys & clubs. totally understand ur sentiments sweetheart :)

Question: why do guys hit the clubs?

the ONLY possible outcomes are:

1) to check out hot babes (with low cut tops, mini skirts. cos in the dark, its prob quite hard to make out how pretty the girl is. But nevertheless, the p'ple frm mars just...)

2) to grind girls

3) to hook up just for the night

4) to feel the thrill of successfully being able to get a stranger's approval (getting her no, getting close to her) so they feel good/"wanted" for the moment. its like being a hollywood star in front of ur male counterparts for being so pro. (Hippopotamus-sized male ego)

I brain stormed theres no other reasons n u'll realise the options r ALL girl-related. Some will argue its "just for fun mah", but the fun is yet to be elaborated ;) girls are the most intelligent when it comes to such things, beware!

what atrocious creatures men can be sometimes. (exception to some) They always overestimate their drinking capabilities and end up losing their minds. And you noe the power of alcohol..its the master of all sins in clubs. i rmb how appalled i was the 1st time i hit the clubs with my dance girls.

dont you feel like skinning them alive sometimes? (evil laughter)

hahah i'll continue with my findings if need be after tonight's mambo with the air force dudes. n if my pri sch fren is going wif his rj peeps, mayb can catch up:)

p.s i shld so do a research on this topic, its too interesting to be true.

2007-09-11T02:01:00.000+08:00

i really miss that someone who'll hear me out patiently,
without judging eyes.
without labelling me.
Even if she has no advice to give,
her presence n willingness
in allowing me to pour just everything n anything,
even if its for the million and one time,
just makes me feel im important in some ways,
at least for the moment.
:)

i miss my sister-in-christ, Ruby, alot.
she's always so happy, always seeing her smiling!

i cant wait to see her again,
i've got so much to tell you abt dear.
i hope ur NIKE shape run marathon went well!

2007-09-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

before you even try,
dont say you cant.

before it even happens,
dont give up hope.

keeping the faith
:)

school was supposed to start at 10am today. but my alarm clock played me out..i only woke up at 925am!! HORRORS of HORRORS. I wldnt mind skipping if its a lecture, but my 10am lesson was a tutorial. i bathed/changed in 10mins, drove to school with my veryvery wet hair n reached at 1015am. i felt so paiseh for always being late for Dr Metha's lessons :(( arghh

sorry for the very short update.

in the midst of preparing for someone's present!

hands are quite dirtyyy n yuckkyyy. will blog some other time okie!

2007-09-08T15:06:00.000+08:00

went to sentosa with darling pandaaa last weds :D surprisingly it didnt rain, thank god for the perfect weather! im lazy to blog in details cos i gotta do some readings for my monday tutorial. so i'll leave u guys with pics okkk?

p.s thanks to the many for ur concern regarding my gastric flu :) michelle actually got better..but she jinxed herself by drinking milo last nite (totally forgot its a diary product) n hence, diarrhoea is back again :( i noe u wanna slap me. haha

toilet shots r a must :) hahah cafe del mar~
ru & her strawberry margarita
my virgin margarita experience! mine's mango flavoured :)

picturesque huh ;)

an impromptu shot by ru tt turned out quite nice!

row, row, row ur boat

go ru!!:D

bay watch! yea rite. i wish i was that hot hurhur :(

the lifeguard above kept staring at us. lol

this doesnt look singapore eh?

i like ru's colourful bikini top :D

swimming in del mar's pool :D actually is too shallow. haha

totally cooling in the hot weather :)

girls just wana have fun :)

2007-09-07T01:17:00.000+08:00

sigh.

i've been down with a really bad diahorea, gastric pain n stomachache since weds late nite. cld barely sleep cos when the pain comes on, its kinda hard to bear. i just kept praying tt i'll have the strength to bear it all.

Thursday morning came, decided not to go to school cos i was visiting the loo too often, at least once an hr. it wld b really inconvenient if i were in sch, plus the pain, aint gona b easy. but i did wana go to sch :( but its ok, managed a few hrs of sleep after lunch.

visited the toilet for countless number of times till my backside hole really ache. im serious, so much so tt i fear hafing to poo (which is impossible now tt i haf diahorea). it puzzles me, since i've no appetite to eat n have barely nothing to poo, yet i still have diahorea?? i wonder if i'll poo my intestines out.. :(

darling came to the rescue at abt 6+pm after camp, brought me for dinner n to the doctor. the fish soup was nice, but i really had no appetite n felt like throwing up. Came home after visiting the doctor, ate my medicine, it felt better for awhile. The reality show on AXN was good enuff to distract me frm the pain :) rested on the bed for awhile n almost fell aslp in darling arms..before i knew it, he had to go home cos he had to go to camp the next day! but its ok, thanks dear for coming down. i wld've loved to smuggle u in for one nite..at least the pain wld subside noeing ur ard :)

its friday. sch in awhile..im awake cos im trying to distract myself frm the pain!! proj meeting at 1030am, lect frm 12-2, 2-4. mite skip the 2-4 one since theres webcast now..

just wana get well soon, dislike feeling weak all over :(((((

2007-09-05T01:07:00.000+08:00

maybe i've been wrong all this while,
cos there's really nothing to fear afterall.
:)

lead me,
through the eyes of faith.

ur reassurance,
is/will be the only remedy to this

we'll finish well :)

2007-09-03T17:50:00.000+08:00

yet another rainy & gloomy monday. the weather been quite cranky these days!

went to visit samuel @ the army open house yest! lotsa p'ple from the public-- excited kids with camo on their faces, gfs of the NS men etc. hahah. i tot the entire open hse seemed quite exciting with all the activities lined up, but darling clearly wasnt interested in any cos he's pretty anti-army like most of my guy frens. They just wanna get out of this whole NS thing ASAP! He brought me to some booths though..where we got disapproving stares frm higher ranking p'ple cos we hanky panky a little only. (i meant,we held pinkie fingers occassionally. or darling likes to call it "a glimpse of each other's hands" hahah sounds dam cornie. actually it was totally nth, just tt men in uniform have to behave appropriately??)

got to get a glimpse of what samuel's job is like..the ROS n all! the inside look quite cool huh ;) there was fireworks display at 730pm, but we din bother to stay cos we wanted to head home before it was too late!

OH you noe, juls & i were quite telepathic today! quite amusing actually :) ok i shall elaborate a little! we alrdy planned to meet for lunch frm 12-2pm last nite. i knew she had tutorial (but forgot which) frm 10-12pm, but i tink she din noe i had mine at the same time too. she said she wld call me after her tutorial so we cld meet. I ended mine at abt 1145am..walked out of the room n passed by AS4/B-09, the class bside mine, n i somehow felt mayb jul was having tut there. i waiting a few mins but i was feeling quite cold n needed to peeeeee badly, so i decided tt i shld just go pee in the toilet which is 2 levels up. after i pee-ed i was wondering why juls hafnt called me yet, cos it was nearly 12pm n tutorials dont usually end so late. Walked down the stairs n was looking out of the glass panels to see if jul has walked out..just as i was walking down, i saw juls walking up!!! got a shocked! n guess what..we were BOTH WEARING WHITE TODAY. Ltr, i told juls abt all my gut feel n stuff n she told me tt, she was also wondering as she walked out of class how come i din contact her..she even tot i din wanna haf lunch with her! awwwwww. so scaringly coincidental & telepathic :D

went to the arts canteen for lunch. we both had claypot spring onion chicken & rice :) quite nice, just tt i was a little too oily for me.

AND...i got a surprise thankyou gift from juls darling :D:D so sweet of her ..thankew so much dearie, for ur lil handmade card & hershey chocolates, it really made my day u noe! No worries, ur always my favourite NUS girlyfrienie, heh, just let me know anytime, i'll be there :)) many more HOT lunch dates okie!!:D *muah* Do leave tags on my blog okie, cos i din noe u still read it till u told me today! dont so secretive ;)

2007-09-02T23:32:00.000+08:00

things happen for a reason ;
things are the way it is,
for a reason too.

afterall,
the present
is all that really matters
:)
as for the in betweens,
time will be the answer.

i just cant wait to let the world know!:)
(after all the pain they've inflicted on me, within.)

<3

2007-08-30T00:53:00.000+08:00

Miss Michelle Wong is stressed :(

she doesnt understand why she's feelin stressed now when school only just begun n seem quite cope'able so far. mayb cos she has higher expectations to do even better this semester so she can do honours n be in sch one more yr with her other half (just in case another XYZ comes along, hahahahha) n she has outside dance & tuition to cope with too.

(Anyway, shes grateful Mr Samuel Seah has been accompanying her after camp the past few days. Even though it was a short & sweet one, at least it took her mind off work/dance for awhile n put a smile on her face :] so thankyou sweetheart!)

with the above commitments, she's still hoping to volunteer at an elderly day-care centre soon so she can interact with elderly n this will help her in her module: SW3213- working with older adults, especially when it comes to citing examples for exams or term assignments. However, she understands language barrier will b a problem n therefore is hoping her translater (samuel seah) will come along too. n it wld b wonderful too cos they'll both b doing good deeds :D okkkk i was kidding, samuel seah is a busy boy for now at least!

she has been dying for retail therapy n is waiting for her pay day & allowance day to come soon!

meanwhile, she has been participating in taiwan online spreeeeeees :D n checking out hps cos her current hot pink razor is getting crankier as the day goes by. its telling her its time to get a new phone :)

but she cant decide which to get :( its between V8 and Z6. both motorola cos her mum works there n it'll b more convenient if anything happens (free services!)

V8 (front)

V8 (side profile) VERY SLEEK!:D

the Z6 is also cool! sliding phones r the in-thing these days

SO HOW? which one nicer??

2007-08-28T18:21:00.001+08:00

Wong Li Jin Michelle --
[noun]:

A dance involving little to no clothing

'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

hahahah tts hilarious!! not bad huh, my name has something to do with dance! YAY! im born to dance :D:D but WHAT!?!! involves LITTLE to NO(?!?!) clothing?? errmmm. NO WAY MAN!

2007-08-28T00:07:00.000+08:00

its true,

doing sucha thing is unwise.

cos the past is past

n its totally irrelevant to now :)

but i just cant seem to stop.

itchy hands, mind & heart.

i'll let you give them a good tight slap ;)

why do i always dig my own grave?

(cos i fear history repeats itself.)

but,

i do trust in my god,

n theres nothing to fear..

AT ALL :)

hohoho.

michelle wants to shop n buy pretty clothes to make herself feel beautiful n good!:)

2007-08-27T01:37:00.001+08:00

i couldnt be more thankful
:)

2007-08-24T00:22:00.000+08:00

Mum & dad are away in thailand for dad's company annual get-together. Didnt go along with them this yr cos i've got school. but i figured out if i went, i'll b so lonely n bored cos they'll b playing golf every single day..haha my parents r golf fanatics!! but its nice to noe they've someting in common tt they enjoy together :)

so since my parents r out of town, i got to drove to school today..i was hoping i'll b early for once, but NO, i was late for the million-and-one time. ok, im quite embarassed abt it. Did my manual tutorial registration at the social wk dept after lecture. the form is quite confusing! since it was my short day 2day, i decided to make my time in sch worthwhile so i was furiously photocopying my readings in the library while waiting for darling to contact me. I practically walked in and out of the RBR section for countless time till the uncle thinks im mad. but still, im barely halfway through photocopying!! i've THAT MUCH readings to do man...

i think michelle will b a super knowledgeable girl in 2 yrs time :D agree?

so after darling sms me, went to pick him up at his camp. 20mins drive frm NUS..im getting the hang of moving ard the lim chu kang area! i rmb the 1st time i drove there, i was pretty lost..cos its rows n rows of cemeteries on the left, n the place im suppose to turn into is this small side road! i was so afraid i'll get lost. its not funny getting lost in a...cemetery? driving there at night is worst, i always hallucinate n think abt..casper (the friendly ghost???). but the elven ring n necklance will ward all evil. :D

wanted to borrow bourne identity to watch but when i called up video ezy, its all rented out!! so we borrowed 3 other vcds instead..caught 2 of them today, n will catch the last one over the wkend :) a homely, warm & fuzzy night spent!

i need to get a book shelf/ casing URGENTLY. seeing my files & books in place will motivate me to study!!

n last thing, i WILL NOT BE late for school laterrrr :D:D:D

2007-08-23T00:20:00.000+08:00

been perpetually feeling heavy headed recently, i dont noe isit cos im losing lotsa blood due to the monthly thing :( my head feels as if it weighs a tonne.

taught cardiolatino tonight @ heartland mall. felt quite breathless since i hafnt taught in 2wks..teaching n learning it is pretty different. n i must admit, teaching is MUCH MORE tiring. cos u've to keep counting n queuing, put the extra effort to make the moves obvious so they can follow, be very engergetic so they'll feel encouraged, n put on tt smile even how tired u are. n i was exceptionally tired today cos of the phlegm stuck in my throat! but yay i survived :) i forsee muscle ache tmr :(

anyway mum came to join my class today cos i had a free voucher. hahah my mum is quite good ok! and as usual she'll steal the limelight n attract the other aunty's attention cos her body is quite well maintained for her age. I hope i can b like my mum next time man! i trust i have good genes. hurhurhur

(samuel seah, ur children will have good genes cos u noe why ;) hahahah)

driving to sch tmr cos mum & dad will b away. so i can sleep in laterrr!

tmr is photocopying-of-readings day in the library. but i've to do my manual tutorial registration before that. its sucha hassle :( but i shld b contented my appeal to do another module was successful so yay! thank god :D

say hello to twinkle :) she's really adorable n i feel like squeezing her everytime she gives me the innocent look, awwww. im considering lookin for a mate for her.

Know any handsome mini maltese out there? let me noe :P hahahaha. im kidding. i like my dog virgin for no particular reason :)

2007-08-22T01:15:00.000+08:00

I have a weird craving for drinking now. Im definitely not an alcoholic for sure! (i dont want a beer belly). But sometimes we just need some booze to perk ourselves up yesyes?

n so i was surfing the net to "satisfy" my quirky cravings and came across an alcoholic buffet at Pan Pacific Hotel. Seriously, i wonder how much can one drink. i tink a drinking buffet is abit too much? haha i probably be sober n drank at the end of 1hr of furious drinking! hahah. but nevertheless, check the website http://www.stomp.com.sg/stfoodiesclub/drinks/liquiddiet/77/index.html , it may come in handy if u need to drink ur sorrows away. hahah alright alright, im kidding okkkk :D

im craving for the following:

1)Flaming Lamborghini

Lychee martini

Melon vodka

4)B-52

5)Apple shooters

Tequila Sunrise

have yet to tried margarita, ru says its nice too :D

2007-08-20T01:44:00.000+08:00

just read a friend's blog n realise,
life's indeed very complicated n unpredictable.
i just feel so small inside this big big world sometimes.

i dont understand,
why do i fear the future so much
when i have no control of it at all.
isnt it unncessary?

somehow, i believe that the present has its impact on the future
n hence, we're probably b able to control it..
to a certain extent at least.

many failures in life

are like tt of an earthquake-

its a result of an accumulation of cracks

n saddest thing is that,

u'll only realise the seriousness when it happens.

i dont ever want to experience such pain.

treasure & appreciate.-- i want to learn to do so, before its too late. And the 'too lates' are usually the most painful n regretful things in life, only to realise you cld have done something earlier on.

i just had to say:

i love you alot darling..for all the things we went through together, for all the time spent, deep down inside, i wana thankyou cos they're the things tt r so dear n precious to me..really.

2007-08-19T20:29:00.000+08:00

'The Reunion', was held at AJ auditorium yesterday n from the name, u cld alrdy guess it was an alumni gathering :) after a mth plus of practice, its finally over! The dance alumni did "Emotions in Motion" once again (altho i admit im kinda bored of tt dance cos we've danced it for REALLY long, since j2!) but yea, i guess it'll b the last time doing it cos we'll b doing something brand new for next yr's AJ dance concert tt will b held in march @ victoria theatre.

i admit i sorta dreaded going for practice sometimes (esp the saturday morning ones cos i wanna sleepppp hahaha), but yea, i guess afterall it was quite a worthwhile performance-- seeing the manymany batches coming back to perform was quite heartwarming, a CO guy proposing to his girlfriend of many yrs, amongst others :) i was pleasantly surprised to note tt our batch had the most who came back to perform :D

just something small for my alma meter. Afterall, i have some wonderful memories n met great p'ple in the short 2 yrs there..n what more, found my love there (hahahaha!). its a place worth remembering yea? :)

photos :D

tt's what we had for lunch n dinner. haha

pregnant florence :P
my SUPERlongAGO seniors on the left. the 2nd frm the left is a lawyer ok! pretty too:P cecilia & elizabeth came to support as at our matinee performance :)

gang ho pose. lol

my ex-classmate Qiling! he performed for the CO.

with Ms Siau, the one incharge of this concert :) shes one of the best teachers in AJ!

just after our night performance & waiting for the finale :)

my batch's dancers :)

my junior who performed too :) ; A pose for the 7th mth. hahahah kidding

Formal family photo in the student lounge :)

informal!

bear fight!

we all wanted a piece of the cutesy bear haha

n my darling yiru came to watch us at night :D

strike a pose sexayyys

poo'ing pose. hahahah

trying to flirt with yiru x)

so tts for yesterday!

after returning home pretty late last night, i had to wake up early this morning as i had roadshows to do @ marina sq in the afternoon! was lazying in bed n refused to get up. but the thot tt Amore has up my pay for 50bucks per item (3mins) for good conduct, i cldnt b late :( n its my last few roadshows for the yr! i bathed & put on make up within 30mins, n ate a dumpling as i walked to the bus stop. mad rush but i made it on time cos the bus came immediately!:D

This is last promotional rdshow before women's day out, which is on the 1st & 2nd of sept. My performances will tone down majorly unless i've to teach classes! then, i'll pray money will fall frm the sky. heh

shout out: hello darlingggg, enjoying ur stand by in camp?? :)

2007-08-17T00:14:00.000+08:00

was asking my dance friend abt what happened to Hamzah's mum since they went to attend the wake last night..n i was shocked to hear tt his mum actually committed suicide by jumping frm the 12th floor of their hse. She had a long history of depression ever since his dad divorced her. How powerful love can be, especially in driving a woman to her death. so much for a man who doesnt love her anymore..sigh.

sometimes i wonder..when life seem to crumble before you, is there really really no way out other then to end your life? the fact tt ur able to find the courage to actually jump from so high does show that possibly, u've some strength within you..maybe just more negative than postive ones. How about leaving the ones who love you so much behind? Isnt such a rash act selfish n cruel?

suicide, isnt that inevitable? we all go through times when the pastures seem less green or even barren..times where we just feel so bobbed up by problems tt never seemed to have a solution..or surpressed unhappiness till the extent we cant take it anymore. i admit im a victim of at least one of the above a couple of times in my 20 yrs of living. but i guess i hafnt had enough courage to do sucha thing..

or rather, i'll never bare to live my loved ones behind..not till i get married to the man who loves me the most, bare his children (min. 1 girl 1 boy, not more than 3..hahahah), aged happily n lovingly, be a pretty & hot mama..

ohwells, mayb tt doesnt give me a reason at all to leave this wonderful place :)

2007-08-16T01:15:00.000+08:00

dear heavenly father,

i have so much to tell you about..
thanks for being all ears n patient always
:)

i dont know whats with the angst within
i just feel stressed with life's circumstances
im sorry, for unknowingly vending them on you sometimes
especially so when ur absent n just need ur motivation
i dont feel good abt it at all..
so pls forgive me baby :(
im in the midst of settling down
the process is never easy.
pls help me along yea? :)

my deepest condolences to Hamzah for the passing of his mum.
he's my favourite male dancer/instructor thus far
be strong.
we all love you.

2007-08-15T00:36:00.000+08:00

thankyou dear, for making my tuesday such a wonderful one :))

-coming over to my place to look for me straight after u booked out early this morning even though ur so tired frm ur overnight duty last night :)

-bringing me to eat our favourite lor mee @ amk S11 before my sch started

-surprise visit after my AJ dance at night [i seriously thot u wldnt come cos i noe ur exhausted]

-coming over to watch SPARTANS together

-drove out to Macs for supper :D

-went home only at 12.20am when u still have camp tmr!

-comforting me after the "encounter" n reminding me tt god & you are always there :)

-accompanying me thru the fone even though ur in the shower as i walked in the dark to open the back door cos i was frightened :)

i noe u wldnt be able to do it often cos of the many other commitments for now, but nevertheless, i reallyreally appreciate it dear..for the time n effort :D its the simple little things like your company tt juz make me feel loved. n tts all i ask for :)

u totally made my day!

2007-08-11T01:35:00.000+08:00

officially the last wkend before a new school term begins! its a bitter-sweet feeling..im kinda excited cos i wanna start this term on the right note, but yet, im also beginning to have school reopening blues. hahah mayb cos i've an expectation of myself to me (need to wk EXTRA hard so i can stay 1 more yr in sch with darlingggg) + will b busy busy till mid sept cos of dance! Mayb i shldnt think at all & just do it man!

im glad i've finally gotten my modules after rd2A. the non-allocated modules were pretty cheap cos i was outbidded for all the popular ones..leaving me with lotsa pts in my P account. pros n cons actually! i mean i was initially quite disappointed with not getting the more exciting modules like counselling..but having more pts also means i can do all the cool modules like urban youth & mental health the following sem, yay :) my exam dates r extremely spread out man..(26th, 29th nov, 1st, 6th, 7th dec..i tink i end on the last day!!!) i dont noe if its good or bad actually. good- more time to study, bad-while everyone else is partying..i'll b slogging away :(

so darling, do me a favour n be nice n wait for me to play okkkk..i noe u'll b in an ORD mood..but u'll wait for me right?:D since i always wait for you..hahaha fair & square pls :D

so all 3 social wk modules i'll b doing are compulsory ones, its a sooner or later needa clear kinda modules, n i forsee they'll b kinda dry (sw2103-community & grp wk, sw2105-relationship skills, sw3101-research module). But NO! i shldnt stereotype n have such a mentality before even trying..its all abt making it interesting :D ok so, 3 Social wk modules, 1 sociology module, 1 Singapore studies module which i'll b using as a u/e (unrestricted elective)-- it costs the most man :(

aj dance later in the morning..i hope my diahorea will stop! yawns. i wanna shop..but its time to save money!!

2007-08-10T11:01:00.000+08:00

Happy belated birthday SINGAPORE!:)

had AJ dance pract in the morning n met darling to spend the rest of the day.

cityhall was packed to the max! it was as if we were in a war zone..so many road blocks, it was quite exhausting trying to move from one place to another especially u have to take the longgggggggg way. Patience training i tell u. Initially, we intended to go esplanade for dinner..but we just cldnt get on tt side of the road! so eventually we decided to settle ourselves down at some cosy restaurant @ suntec city!

it was a little celebration for his wushu competition success + treat for being a sweet girlfriend, always going down for his trngs n helping him with stuff etcetc. hahaha. though the food was so-so..it was nice spending some sweet time to ourselves :) n thanks darling for the GUESS watch u got me as a pre-anniversary gift :D so gorgeous..it has blingsblings. i noe the exact retail price was $215..altho u said u had a discount but i guess its still abt tt price n tts alot! i really love it :D:D thankew so much dear..the watch will remind me tt our time together is very precious n neverending :))

after dinner, we walked ard..n found the sky garden. Saw some p'ple camping there probably hoping to see the fireworks! so we decided to try our luck. However when the firewks came on, sadly we cld only see the sides of it :( what a waste! i love firewks :(( but its ok! we still managed to see the actual firewks through the reflection in the glass panels of the building tt's opposite!

p.s pls get well soon darling! it pains me to see u always ill recently :(

my biggest sunshine, thanks for being there always..through all my ups & downs, even though my darkest moment in life. i love you :)

2007-08-08T00:22:00.000+08:00

i am VERY stressed :((

its past midnight n i just returned frm dance rehearsals. my brain is seriously malfunctioning 2nite..i cld barely remember half of the 3/4 choreography she taught. i dont noe why i found it so hard to grasp..mayb her dance style is kinda different frm mine. we learn something new everyday dont we? but problem is, the rest seem to b able to catch it so fast :( its frustrating.

tt adds to my 'stress list'.

dance rehearsals tmr again. 1-3pm. 10-11pm. how odd the timing. im suppose to teach tuition frm 3-430, im still not sure abt tt..might postpon! cos i need to relaxxxxx.

hahahaha i wish i cld just laugh it off! i realise its always this time of the yr when i face such sadness within. last yr was trying to cope with girls nation dance battle n sch. this time its dance n the blues frm the reopening of sch.

enough of whining. isnt dance something i always loved? its true..but sometimes it isnt easy when u go through the process of practicing tough choreo..trying to juggle teaching n rehearsals n other stuff.

BUTbutBUT there's so many happy things to look forward to..like going out wif my other half n adorable friends! n i shld b happy tt im blessed with so much opportunities when im young n bursting with energy!

smilesmilesmile :D:D:D

i miss mambo :(

2007-08-02T00:43:00.000+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates! i've been pretty caught up with stuff.

bidding has been a bitch so far, i've yet to get the modules i want! i tink its sorta a blessing in disguise tt i didnt get my counselling module cos i realise my timetable looks better without it. but im quite upset i didnt get my SW3213, social wk working with elderly module :( i've to wait till round 2 to bid (next wk)..i dont noe why it isnt offered in rd1B & 1c since im a social wk major. im Yr2 n im still confused abt the system..ohdear me. i dislike waiting in vain. but theres nothing to fret cos i always trust in his plans for me :D

darling has been on leave this entire week to meditate (or so he calls it, hahah). his competition will b this wkend..friday-sunday. been mentally & emotionally training with him the past 8mths or so- going to his trainings & supporting him as much as i can, and for the past few days, helping him refine his movements with some hopefully helpful comments. hahah although many a times, my perspective is that from a dance one. but im glad i could be of some use n be part of his passion :) n so, i definitely hope he'll reach his expectation n be satisfied at the end of the day :)

one thing i must say is that, im reallyreally glad we made it through this period of time..cos it wasnt easy at all. He trains 4 times a wk at nite n has army on top of tt. i understand how draining (physically & mentally) it is..im proud of u darling, for perservering all the way! im also glad we manage to compromise on things n r still happy p'ple :) Despite the several hiccups we encountered along the way, im glad that we'll make it a point to sit down n have our little heart-to-heart talks each time, it always works doesnt it dear?:) muacks thankew darling, u noe how much all these mean to me too, like how it means to you :)

All the best my love, i know ur very excited tt its finally here..i am for you too :) cos i wanna watch u soar n i wanna see the fruits of ur labour. Have faith in urself darling, cos i believe in you :) rmb to stay calm & cool, you've got wad it takes! As ur greatest fan, i'll be there on all 3 days, promise, to watch, support & encourage you :) muacks, finish well my man..always behind you.

with much love :)

2007-07-29T01:27:00.000+08:00

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

Only in you, do i find true inner peace.

2007-07-23T15:58:00.000+08:00

Girls' Nation Dance Battle finals @ zouk :) something im still really proud of-- my virgin hiphop competition ; my first crowned champions.

p.s i noe the quality is terrible! but its the only video i have of us n sadly its incomplete :( if ur wondering where i am, im to your extreme left n i'll get down on the floor towards the end :)

2007-07-23T01:52:00.000+08:00

the time spent with you are really precious...

n im thankful for them all :)

2007-07-21T10:13:00.000+08:00

braces no more :D my 1.5yr affair with it ended yesterday. i wonder if i'll miss it like how some of my friends missed it. (i noe it sounds weird haha) but when they took it off yesterday, my mouth just felt awkward being so empty! n to see my teeth without any obstruction, i kept asking samuel if it looked weird now that its so straight. but he kept smiling n looked fascinated saying its very nice n i looked pretty. sweet talk huh. ok la kidding darling, he looked sincere though ;) hahahaha anyway, thanks for accompanying me :D

my first bracesless pic :D

going to the dentist later to get my retainer!

social work camp was okay..but i left earlier (thurs) cos i was kinda tired n my period was coming, so all the aches :( n so i decided to give samuel a surprise at his hse after going home to haf a nice shower n taking mum's car. quite funny..to see his expression. HAHAHAH so adorable my baby :D i was hiding at the lift lobby! i knew he was going down to train n hence would go tt way. thankfully my surprise worked. through out the wait i was actually quite jing zhang cos im quite scared of lift lobbies or void decks, childhood fear. but seeing him happy made it all worthwhile, yay ;)

camp pics up soon :)

2007-07-17T20:45:00.000+08:00

social work camp begins tmr! i hope it'll be fun :)

tanning with meow yest was fun! there were totally NO CLOUDS when we were first there..so u can imagine how hot it was. thankfully it wasnt the scorching kinda hot, still bearable. We both covered our face with our caps cos we learnt frm previous experience how burnt u can get without taking cover! (mine was HORRIBLE, i rmb all the weird looks p'ple wld give me :[ ) haha so anyway, we're nicely baked now :)) happppy..

picturesss~

tt's meowmeow's sunglasses! very vintage!

sunkissed ;)

i realise in the pic with meow, my braces doesnt look obvious yea? heh, speaking of which, im very excited cos its gona b off on friday! confirmed :D

will b back very soon. takecare p'plee~ (n good luck for ur driving darlinnggg, slow & steady love!)

2007-07-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

:) what a sweet & happy ending to that show..its always nice to have a perfect ending, being away frm the world with your other half, just concentrating on one another. nothing fanciful ; a simple yet blissful life..beams. hahah

to top it off, i enjoyed the heart to heart talk in ur arms in that nice windy night :)

thankyou darling, you know you made my day :D

sentosa with meow tmr! my period feels lyk its coming after the evening run with darling. hmmms n i've social wk camp next wk, ohno. but i tink its gona b quite cool cos we're gona stay in kent ridge hall :)

n hopefully, braces off on fridayyy~

crystal jade with the AJ dancers 2 wks back :)

thankyou lord, for the great day :)

2007-07-14T00:59:00.001+08:00

my today's horoscope reads:

"Fear is the only thing holding you back right now-- and it's time to stare it down."

sounds too familiar.

2007-07-13T00:46:00.000+08:00

i will run to you :)

Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand, it comforts me
From the ends of the Earth to the depth of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory, may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demand

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
'Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

thankyou lord :)

2007-07-13T00:28:00.000+08:00

sigh. i think i should just stop trying so hard from now on..cos everytime the harder i try, the harder i fall. and it hurts doubly more; i find myself breaking down more often than before n quite aggresive these days. why :(

im quite tired of myself being like that, seeing the rest so happy. we all deserve to be happy.

i just cant help it. whats wrong girl?

yet another love-hate relationship with myself :(

oh lord, teach me to be of good courage even when sadness feels the heart..

i need retail therapy!

2007-07-12T00:48:00.000+08:00

high tea buffet @ yum cha :)) it was quite good! we ate till we almost died. my tummy felt harder than rock after the entire feasting season. (it shows i made my money worthwhile, heh) kinda tired to blog :( shall leave u with pics, not many though.

takecare peeeps.

the foursome :D bel, shijie,meow & me!

meowmeow & jiejie :) *doesnt tt make miao jie? hahahaha*

bel & i sharing the lemongrass jelly! sounds yucky but its NICE:D

2007-07-10T16:36:00.000+08:00

yet another stay-home day. thankfully i've got something to do..at least it has been of good company for the afternoon :) but im starting to feel bored again. i wanna start baking soon before school begins! i've got so many good recipes to try!!!

yum cha tmr with meow & shi jie! YAY! im finally going out :D tim sum buffet frm 3-6pm, oh heavenly :D i checked the website few days back n its really value for $$$! mmmmms.

http://www.yumcha.com.sg/

will be teaching at kovan at 830pm tmr too. thankfully theres 2.5hr buffer time in between to digest the food! anyway, i just forgo 90bucks this wk :( was asked to replace 2 classes earlier (one yest & one 2day) but i was kinda lazy when they called so i turned them down. n now im starting to feel its sucha waste..could have made up my losses for the GSS (great spore sale) AH! nvm, money isnt everything rite? im sure all of u agree with me, heh. (hahahah im trying 2 console myself)

anyway, i wanna go borrow my abonormal psychology book frm the national lib soon :)

schedule for the wk ahead:

Weds- Yum cha with meow & shijie, teaching @ kovan 830pm
Thurs- Teaching @ kovan 330pm & @ woodlands 830pm
Fri- Lunch with old friend, AJ dance pract for cultural nite 7-9pm
Sat- AJ dance pract 9am, dance showcase @ suntec 4pm
Sun- Church, dance performance @ suntec 12pm

n darling if ur reading this frm camp, i miss you :) [not my dog, pls]

2007-07-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

saw my pics on the official Women's Day Out event website n was quite excited!! cos i didnt see those pics before :) heh.

http://www.womensdayout.sg/

Anyway, Women's Day Out (WDO) is a annual event held just for us, women, to promote and encourage healthy living and the importance of keeping fit! A jointly organised event by Singapore Sports Council and Amore Fitness, it'll be held once again at Takashimaya on 1st & 2nd Sept (sat & sun). The workout marathon awaits as we not only have LOADS OF FUN, but the greater price would b...u'll b guarenteed to a greater & HOTTER bod ;) woohoo~

check out the website for more details! will b involved in this yr's event once again to lead the crowd in the cardiolatino mass workout section, so i'll see u there :D

p.s im still quite amused as to why my pic is there for the 'Iron woman' challenge. HURhurHUR.

2007-07-09T00:27:00.000+08:00

:)

yesterday (sunday) was the 1st time samuel n i went to church together :) he was invited for some boys brigade event cos he was a senior n i guess its nice to be back to ur alma meter after so long! congrats to his younger bro for being appointed as the new head of his company! (yes darling, i cant help but agree the seah family is quite zai eh! heheh so are u of cos :P) service was kinda different frm the usual church i attend, but it doesnt matter cos we're all here to celebrate the same, one & only almighty :) darling kept laffing at me cos i was JUST ABIT slower den him when turning to the pages in the bible. heh, but nevertheless, im thankful for such an opportunity :) many more to come in the future!

lunched near his place! the yummy nasi lemak stall :)

den went over to his place to watch yang guo!

after tt he came over to my place n we fell aslp cos the rainy weather was just too good to b true for snooooozing!! mum cooked spagetti for the family n we woke up just in time for that. watch more yang guo after dinner n we went for a run @ 10pm ard the estate!! hahah super late i noe. but it feels nice to workin out together, n not forgetting, walking hand in hand n soaking in the tranquil surroundings :)

thankew so much for spending the entire day with me darling :) i reallyreally had a great time n it just felt so nice being ard u, its as though we lived together.

1Peter4:7-8 : The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray. Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

i love you, my dear<3

2007-06-29T04:01:00.000+08:00

hello..guess wad time it is? its FOUR(4) am now.

it noe its kinda insane to be awake at this hour..but yea, i just sorta finish rehearsing my choreographed steps & queuing for tmr's audition. YES, its the day. butterflies in the stomach. im really quite nervous!!!! i guess we'll all get thru it cos we've been assigned to relief classes for the next few wks..but i dont wish to screw up my queuing in front of the heads. calm n cool n keep flashing that megawatt smile, its just 30mins!!!:) ah.

i've been joking to sam the past wk abt how i've to keep in optimum shape as far as possible since i'll b teaching soon n hence i feel kinda obliged to set a good example for my students. so i told myself to eat healthier, less supper n more toning up cos i'll haf to 'reveal' my midriff. BUT guess wad, i had NYDC wif girlfren today...the mudpie was irresistable n too good to be true :D:D ahhhhhh.

sentosa on tues with meow :) im happy cos im tanned now! but my face is kinda lobsterish. n so i've to explain myself to everyone i meet into :( anywayyys, pictures!

after which, we went to meet bel for dinner at food republic :)

yawns, im feelin tired but yet my mind is awake? but i guess i shld get going..need the energy for tmr:) wish me luck p'ple~

2007-06-25T01:52:00.000+08:00

retail therapy has gone on its highest last wk. totally bursting all my savings..thanks to our long awaited GSS. hahaha :) shopping with ru on thurs n sat was totally fruitful! Frm just 2 days worth of shopping, i've gotten myself:

1) body shop moisturizers & facial mask
2) 1 black pump

3) 2 charles & keith shoes (1 sandals & 1 peep-hole heels)

4) 3 La Senza bras [totally worth it! 50% + 20% sale!!], 3 pretty undies, 2 sports bra

5) 2 bikini bottoms

6) 1 white puff sleeve top

7) honey-brown shades

ok, i noe it sounds ALOT (hides face in embarassment) BUTBUTBUT, i got them all at a pretty good discount!! apart frm my black bikini bottom tt darling thought it looked nice on me n decided to buy for me cos i was hesitant to buy due to price. (thankew baby!) so tt wraps up my shopping spree! but i still wanna get dresses leh :(

been pretty busy with dance. thankfully i din work eventually, cos my dance commitments suddenly picked up. been getting more dance assignments (roadshows & relief teaching). but im pretty stressed out abt it. The thought of having to stand in front of a crowd of fussy students n give queues is quite frightening. but then again, im getting paid for doing someting i love..so i shld b feel thankful & blesssed, and just enjoy myself right :)

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schedule 4 the week ahead:

mon- hiphop class

tues- tanning with meow + dinner wif bel!

weds- rdshow @ suntec, cardiolatino class at nite

thurs- cardiolatino class at nite

fri- AJ dance pract for alumni cultural night

sat- Cultural night dry run, teach hip hop class, rush for social wk camp prep

sun- church & hiphop class

wah okay, tt sounds very busy! n tt means i dont haf much time for my smallville anymore:((
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walking hand in hand,

dinner in our cosy room,

wushu videos,

face mask,

warm cuddles,

car ride,

heart-to-heart talks

<3ed

2007-06-21T02:20:00.000+08:00

im so sorry! been MAJORLY procrastinating abt my genting pics :( its 70% done in my drafts, i'll get it up soon ok!

anyway, i've decided to stop looking for a job n just relax n enjoy the holidays :) i feel like a total lazy bum..cos all i do is eat sleep n watch dvds, makes me feel FAT n HEAVY. but its really quite difficult to be employed since i've dance rehearsals & instructor trng on weds n fri. hoping to get more dance assignments/ relief classes to teach this 2nd half of the yr so i can make up for the losses frm the GSS (great singpore sale).

im still waiting for $ to fall frm the sky...haf yet to get more pretty dresses n shoes. did i mention i've a fetish for shoes since a few mths back? AH! this is terrible, horrible.

im currently quite hooked onto smallville! (not korean dramas anymore!) thanks to my darling boyfriend, who kindly introduced it to me. im currently at season 1 episode 12? halfway done the season, n theres 6 seasons! woohooo..its exciting plus a little romance, quite sweet huh :) anyway, its been of great company especially when im so bored & lonely in the day! but dont worry, clark kent doesnt beat u, my man-winks-

n thanks for supper at ur place again! i still think u shld b more gentle with the cutlery :) lols

:)

2007-06-12T22:10:00.000+08:00

Life once was a tangled line,
Like missing pieces in a game of chess.

Like saying "NO",
But meaning "YES".

But Im slowly straightening it out,
thanks to special education
Life is now alot more clear
The tangles are unravelling

And Hope is here :)

--adapted frm the SPED(special education for children with disabilities) website.

was bored and started thinking abt my future career path. checked the NCSS website for careers available in the social scene since i'll graduate with a degree in social science.

started considering the various options and the sudden aspiration for special education came. i mean, i did think abt it before but as i went through information for SPED, i felt that maybe..this is for me. always wanted to work with children/youths who are disadvantaged. i know its gona be quite a difficult job, but i guess the satisfaction of being able to alleviate the lives of someone in need & being able to make a difference will spur me on :)

2007-06-12T14:21:00.000+08:00

tag replies:

wendy- heys dear!:) thx for tagging! i miss you too~ when r u coming back frm canada?? do let me noe okies? so we can have a gatherATION :P im so bored in spore. im turning into a rock frm a stone, n into a mountain very soon. (hahaha) hope ur doing great over there! hugss.

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cramps >:(

bored & lazy.

maybe, thinking less will help.

faster come home ru!! so we can go out together! (FOOD HUNT & SENTOSA!)

i want more dresses. (so meanwhile, im waitin for $ to fall frm the sky)

i want to bake toblerone chocolate cheese cake. (but i've yet to get the ingredients)

i wana do scrapbooking. (but am currently lazy to go PS to get the materials)

i wana help my chivalrous knight sew his sword cover.

i cant wait for the wkends to come.

so we can do someting fun together like..stretching? hahah

i cant wait for sch to start.

im waiting for 3pm so i can watch Guess (x3) on channel U.

2007-06-09T15:07:00.000+08:00

HELLO, IM BACK!!:))

i know many are curious abt how we did, so heres it..

AJC alumni got GOLD for this 21st century International Dance competition.

but we're kinda upset by the fact tt we missed the honours mark by ONE pt..the feeling of 'so near yet so far' sux since we got very good comments from all 5 judges! n not forgetting to add tt they're internationally known p'ple in the dance arena! (Liang Jian Ping, Kun-Yang-lin, Ken Metzer, Ying E Ding & Selina Tan)

Whatever the outcome, i noe we did our best cos i felt tt intensity and passion on stage tt very night of the competition. thinking abt it, it was a great achievement afterall, since we got 5th out of the 22 teams frm all over n a score of 89/100 isnt tt bad for 1 mth worth of practice. Coupled with the numerous obstacles we faced n braved ourselves to overcome eventually, i guess we shld b very proud of ourselves for coming this far :)

thanks to the many for their prayers, support & encouragement too :D

this trip was really quite an experience. the workshops conducted by the various internationally well-known choreographers was an eye opener indeed! dance as an art; dance as a form of communication through body, how true..i tink thats the beauty of dance, it brings this unspeakable joy to p'ple (audience, dancers alike). i especially enjoyed Liang Jian Ping's modern dance workshop! His choreography is DARN GOOD :) kinda remindsme of our ex-aj dance choreographer, ms sylvia yong. but his choreography involves moremoving ard. the aj dancers were the most enthu n hence he liked as the most too :) haha

apart from all tt dancing, how can we miss shopping! got some diesel stuff for darlingn myself cos its much cheaper over there! n on some nights, we'll hang out at first world plaza for kenny rogers, pizza hut, KFC & baskin robins since its juz within our hotelvicinity! i know, its extremely sinful. defeats the purpose of a DANCE trip. hahaha. n ohyea, i finally visited a theme park after SO LONG!we conquered all the more challenging rides..the various rollar coasters were fun! i especially enjoyed the "superman" one..but i had a headache after riding it cos i feltas if i was tossed here n there, and everywhere in a cage! BUT, its undeniably FUN!!:D

despite the several downs we had during the trip (which i din bother to mention), i didnt regret coming for this as i felt we've forged this special bond between the AJ dance family..something much stronger than before :) for the time spent,laughter n tears shed, determination and enthusiasm,i must say that..

im really proud to b part of AJ dance society :)
[well done girls, we did it once again!:D]

pictures up soon! (theres really too many!)

2007-06-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

last dance practice cum full dress rehearsal today for our genting competition! starting to feel a lil anxious abt having to go overseas to compete for the very 1st time. Then again, theres always a first time n knowing ur not alone soothes the nerves :) its my virgin trip outta the country without parents! quite exciting ehs

PICTURES!! (lazy to add captions tonight, sorry darlings!!)

till then, i'll b back on 8th june mid afternoon :) hope to bring back some good news!! takecare p'ple!! i'll b back wif lotsa pictures :D

2007-06-01T15:00:00.000+08:00

wheee~

yiru darling & i are going for the ZA summer beauty camp by seventeen magazine & studio wu in late june. First 60 girls gets it free, and we're in!:D thanks darling for calling! they obviously like you better. lotsa attractive door gifts lyk 120bucks worth of ZA products n theres free diva hiphop classes to shake ur bomboms to :D

so exciting! wads more, its with my pandaaaaaa (n so she can cling onto the bamboo. i gladly allow:P)

2007-06-01T12:39:00.000+08:00

crunchyroll is removing all the nice episodes of the dramas i wanna watch :( very sad. does tt mean i've to invest in VCDs which is not economical?? :(

mambo on weds with samuel & his air force dudes. the queue was FREAKING long omgness. but thankfully, his frens went early to queue so in fact we were lyk the 1st few to get in! it was quite fun!! extreme jam-packness everywhere!

and for the very 1st time in my life i felt tipsy. maybe that nite, my alcohol resistent was somehow much lower?? cos tt time during girls nation competition, i rmb we drank 7 shots each n i still survived leh!! n tt nite i just shared many jugs & drank flaming lambo with darling (it was super worth it cos its 1 for 1, n only 23bucks for 2!!). it was quite a funny feeling, like ur vision is very blur..although i PERFECTLY noe whats going on! darling was entertained by how i looked googy n all..he attempted to feed me another shot. HA :) but i had a great nite with my man! yay!

bird's eye view shot. dancing with my man :D (but he claims i didnt wanna dance with him, WHERE GOT!! a picture says a thousand words. hahahaha)

mambo with sam & the air force dudes. hahahah look so crazy!

ok. below is an advertorial: SINGLES UP FOR GRABS, OPEN FOR APPLICATIONS.

n so i've 2 more days in singapore b4 i leave for genting for competition. lotsa problems have cropped up like the last min correction in stage dimension, n how we might not b able to pass the custom with our chairs & tank of helium (props!). but yups, we'll continue to train in faith n hope all goes well :) thanks to the few for the prayers!

im most excited abt goin to another country without parents! will b bunking in with yun qing, (its 2 to one rm btw!), though shes 1 yr my junior, but we can clique very well cos we both speak english!!:D n shes a very nice girl so yay! n i cant wait to ride the rides at the theme park! wheeee.

till then, packing to do! will b away frm 4-8th. n i hope to come back in one nice piece :D hahah

..n so it says Zaknafein (hearts) Ainariel :)

2007-05-30T13:42:00.000+08:00

pictures from last sat's performance, as promised. enjoy! :)

pre-performance// new found sister! shes 14 & im 20 :) hahaha im old hur.

p'ple i met from groove studio!

1/2 the hiphop cast :)
totally love his classes :D
the guys!

the girls!

jazz!

my dance partner - fred!

hahah erms.
virginia! happens to b an nus senior & frm dance ensemble too!

the irresistibly cute japanese ballerinas!!

and so its a must to have a picture with them :D

2007-05-29T23:10:00.000+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates!

been sick (but im better alrdy, just the occassionaly irritating phelgm thing) & BUSY watching korean drama! its so addictive..but im happy its of very good company! just completed full house. i love happy endings yay!:D

quickie update of what happened the past few days:

dance performance on sat was quite ok :) cant wait for the hiphop & jazz video to b out then prob post it on youtube so u guys can watch!

suppose to have dance class on sunday but i was too lazy to turn up for class .

met up with chernie darling yest!!:D congrats my dear, u finally finished ur exams!! went to recruit express, hoping to get a part time job. (but i suddenly dun feel lyk working, i'd rather sit at home n watch DRAMAS!! hahahah tts if only $$ will fall frm the sky :P) n we went shopping!! combed the streets of bugis n orchad. im totally in love wif m(phosis sales. its DARN GOOD :D n im quite a happy girl cos i bought stuff for myself :) u noe how retail therapy rocks!

ok, i just got distracted by an online shop set up by my fren..AHHHHHHHH. i saw someting reasonably cheap for school..quite a pretty dress that i want :(

wanted to upload my dance pics initially, but im kinda lazy now. sorry!! the next entry i will :D

2007-05-25T14:47:00.000+08:00

im so hooked on full house!:D thanks to crunchyroll.com, save me the $ from getting those vcds!

quite a typical love story, girls are always victims of the stupid cupid (dont they rhyme, hahah!) its abt this famous korean actor having a "contract" marriage with this cute girl to shant away scandals in the tv biz and actually the main reason was cos he failed to propose to this girl he has been liking for very long cos she lyks another guy (but turns out he doesnt like her, complicated stuff.)

the contract marriage is funny stuff. it involves someting lyk, no intimate contact, not more than 6 mths etc. haha but whats irritating is that, tt girl whom the korean actor lyked for very long decided to sorta "go back" to him after realising the guy she lyks treats her only as a sister..n so making him confused n all (u noe how guys are always spoilt for choice,haha) but his "wife" nevertheless said nth, cos afterall their marriage was only a contract-- she does the household chores n get paid, n in front of the media they appear as a happy couple.

but somehow as time goes by (or rather nearing the 6mths dateline), both realise they've truly fallen for each other. the power of love tt makes u indispensable of each other. but the very funny thing is they both refuse to admit cos both have some kinda ego. Like, he'll get worried when she comes home late, but instead of asking with concern where she went, he'll yell at her..hahah

so niceee :)) but i tink the actor's old flame is quite a bitch..the way she tries to get his attention all for fame. i cant stand such girls, yuck very degrading.

anyway chernie is coming for my rehearsal ltr :D thanks darlinggggg. now i got someone to help me wif the video'ing!